Wednesday, January 31, 2007
A dose of coffee early in the morning stirs my senses from potential to kinetic energy. Doses of cold Strawberry Starbucks Cappuccino earlier in the morning just gave me my first fight of the year. *brain freeze* I did not see this coming neither was I anticipating for this but then it did… it came… in the most unexpected time. Just when I thought I was going to have a very good morning and/or day for that matter, I did not. The truth is I have not yet slept in more than 24 hours now. Not that I don’t want to because If I choose to, I can, but the thing is, I can’t. How can I let slumber take me in when over some *petty reason* I could lose someone I have gotten close with… a good friend, the moment I have awaken. I’m not sure if this thought is going anywhere close to making sense. Neither am I sure if today or in the days to come I still can call him friend. I’m not sure. I don’t know… And honestly, it’s starting to scare me… it does now… to one day wake up and never have him again. I don’t want to make anymore excuses, let me just say…
I am deeply sorry for whatever I may have done!
*I hope the happy days are not overshadowed by one bad coffee day…
can you feel the beat?
11:21 AM
Labels: 5 minutes, catch, fall, happier, love, man, smiles, thoughts
Friday, January 26, 2007
I want a man… I want a man! I needingly said. Then the person who came right in front of me out of nowhere disappeared in a flash. * This is no hallucination. I am at work and the person I am referring to is an officemate. But of course for blogging purposes let’s pretend to delete this annotation =) * I think I saw her smirk after I gave my answer. I do not know what that was for but I guess that smirk made me realize that it’s not only 5 minutes ago that I want a man in my life. I have wanted him for as long as I can remember but never came across to meeting that one man who will prove me that life indeed is much more worth living when you’re sharing it with someone special.
Someone who isn't perfect *as no one is* but someone who is real.
Someone who can put up with all that I am.
Someone I can have a good laugh & a good conversation with.
Someone who at the end of the day no matter how filty & ngarag I may be will still say,
that's my woman & i love her just the same!
I always say this and will always be saying this until that one day when I will come bumping into that man…
I would want to find a man who is strong enough to catch me!
Dilemma, I have been having for quite a time now but rarely do I put focus on needingly wanting him until 5 minutes ago..
I’m a princess with no prince.
..A lady without a man.
..A damsel in distress.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy. It’s just that I know I can be happier!
Thoughts are rumbling in my head and I can’t seem to get them all out. Do you not wish that sometimes you weren’t a princess so you won’t need a prince? That sometimes things are different? That we don’t have to pretend we do not want something when all our being is roaring to need it? That sometimes at the end of the rainbow the’ll be someone with a bouquet of roses.. or even just a rose.. a red one.. with long stem.. and no thorns? *smiles *
I’m word vomiting right now.. do you not notice? I’m in front of my desktop with much work to do and I can’t grasp any fiber of sanity in me right now. I think I need a dose of a heart- palpitating Starbucks coffee *which reminds me of a date with my batchmates on Monday for our monthsary*
Now I’m smiling.. and wondrin’ why?
Why not?
*zZzZpPp.. thoughts keep me awake.. thank you!
can you feel the beat?
10:39 PM
Saturday, January 13, 2007
see the many colors?
this is how i want this year to be...
and this is exactly how i intend to live it! ;)
can you feel the beat?
6:47 AM