Tuesday, May 30, 2006
can you feel the beat?
8:30 AM
Thursday, May 25, 2006
you know what's worse than learning the truth?
uncovering it.
can you feel the beat?
6:55 PM
Tuesday, May 23, 2006
can you feel the beat?
7:22 PM
Saturday, May 20, 2006
can you feel the beat?
6:03 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006
ganap na ika- apat ng hapon ngayong araw ng isang di kilalang lalaki ang humabol sumabay sa escalator sa isang kagandahan na kagagaling lang sa dermatology clinic. hi! ang sabi ng in fairness gwapong lalaking ito sa nasabing babae. at dahil nga maga pa sa prick ang mukha ng nasabing kagandahan, lingon at ngiti lang ang iginanti nya sa hi! na iyon ng lalaki. ngunit ng akmang iaabot na ng lalaki ang kamay nya sabay sabing ms. pwede bang makipagkilala? ay sya namang hakbang pababa ng kagandahan one stair down sa nsabing esca sa may main entrance ng mall na bayan at sabing im sorry..
marYosep. its not the first time something like that happened to me. and hopefuLLy it never happens again. its both creepy and flattering you know. asSusUs!!
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7:04 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006
it taKes oNe big worthy f*cking bLuff to leaRn the tRuth. UNGAS KA! hinDi ka Lang Hayop iSa kang DEMONYO! maganda lang ako pero hindi ako kriminaL.. takOt pero hindi aKo kasing DUWAG mO!
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6:58 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006
can you feel the beat?
5:37 PM
Thursday, May 04, 2006
fota ang init!
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7:04 PM
Wednesday, May 03, 2006
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6:55 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006
minority report
her name is... you know her name im sure. she's 23. young. intense. free and easy. emulous. forgiving. distraught. she could have saved a space for a better- containing entry. she could have not started facing the computer and move her fingers to write something that im sure by now will not put people in jolt anymore. she could have but she wouldn't! she's sick and tired of people who's made it a habit to lie about just anything to just anybody. chronic liars whose asses are full of sh*T.. so full they need a big time vacuous dealing with!
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they used to always ask her "why?" she would always say "masaya ako!masaya ako e!" they'd doubt if she really was.. they'd always remind her how much they cared. they, who always seemed to know her more than she does, herself. her, who always do things her way..
this time she found herself drawn to his easy ways and had gradually come to fall for him.
I met you on a springtime day,
You were minding your life
and I was minding mine too.
Lady, when you looked my way,
I had a strange sensation and Darling,
that's when I knew...
That it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, I wake up in the night,
And I reach beside me hoping you would be there.
But instead I find someone,
Who believed in me when I said I'd always care...
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
So I'll live my life in a dream world,
For the rest of my days.
Just you and me walking hand in hand,
In a wishful memory...
Oh, I guess it's all that it will ever be...
I wish I had a time machine,
I could,
Make myself go back until the day I was born.
Then I would live my life again,
And rearrange it so that I'd be yours from now on.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
she used to cry behind his back every single time he starts singing this.. so you wonder how he ever finished a song..
he gave her chocolate balls one fine midnight when he left elbi to come see her in metropolis.
he would always remind her of how happy he was.. just having her.. of how much he wanted the weekends to be soon over, as if his weekdays were just weekends.. weekends with her. days he would not want to end. days they'd most of the time spend in concealment away from sanity. they'd find ways to witness the beauty of sunrise.sunset. it gives them the world they want to own for a time then. in a place where sand, sun and water makes being with him a perfect mOment, in their sweet little haven, holding one another, enfloding each one in embrace they will wait for the sun to show up or at other times to rest. he held her hand like he would never let go. he'd kiss her tenderly and caress her like he does no other. perfect days. perfect nights. of a million different ways of expressing affection. of making each one weak for another million unknown reasons.
she misses him. she misses the one who once strolled with her in glorietta and told her "yoko dito. masyadong sosyal. simpleng tao lang naman ako e. simple lang ang gusto.." she misses the times when he'd talk about just anything.. that somewhere in that uncertainty they'd find each other again. she misses it when they both can pretend that nothing else in this world matter.. that no Girl would ever find out, no friends would ever witness, no other world to keep them from that madness, no time to ever end it.. she misses the laughs, the cuddles, the warmth, the smell, the goodmornings, the goodnights, the boy.. she misses the way he looks at her.. god, that look!
she misses everything she has gotten used to all these time.. the lies. the cover ups. the thought deep somewhere within that he could not have made the stand for her. that they couldn't have had those moments together any other way. to be numb. to be in pain. to be dreaming of something that would cast her fears away. to pretend that things did not matter when all she could ever think of was that.. to at least realize that it must have took him that kapal ng mukha to cross that one line he was forbidden to cross.. to linger for another day waiting for prOmises to be kept.. to get lost in a pile of bRoken ones which mounts day by day..
yeah, she misses him...
when she last looked at him, his eyes don't tell her the same. he has gone from bad to worse. and she cannot stand knowing it. even thinking about it. "hindi nyo ko kilala ngayon oy." spoken before a crowd he's been with through everything for ten years.. tama ka, hindi ka na nila kilala ngayon. you are nowhere being the one, neither are you worthy of your friends or even her.. of everything she can give. she used to think she could be the reason... she used to, until she stopped running those thoughts in her head..
i guess you were speciAL but you weren't worthy!!!
you can round the alphabet from a- z and go about a second time or another after that but one thing i can assure you.. one thing i can tell.. you can meet as many young, gorgeous, smart letters as you want but you can never, and i mean never meet another K who will love you the way that she did!
so you think she misses him?
or she's doing herself a favor...
to take hold of herself once more.. to regain precious moments.. to spend one more day with him. just one more day. one more careless moment with him.. one more time and she's leaving everything behind.
maybe. just maybe...
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so you know what. do your self a favor.. mukhang masyado ka nang nalalagi sa ilalim at nag eenjoy ka na sa kaharian dyan, masyado na tuloy kayong nagiging cLose ni Fer na lahat ng hobby nya e gusto mo nang gayahin. hindi ka na bata para matakot sa dilim.. sayang ng balls di ginagamit ng tama. labas.labas. galaw.galaw. gising.gising. dahil baka pag dumating ang araw na gusto mo nang itama ang mga maLi, huli na ang lahat. lahat.lahat.
untiL then.. stay away!
can you feel the beat?
5:43 PM