Monday, February 27, 2006
hhmmmm.. cge na nga. im suppose to invite you all sa pagpasok pa ng buwan, but i can't help it.i hate waiting. eto na, moment na. perfect.
sa friday na iyon. na espesyal sa akin. ako, kristine j. laborte, ay taos- pusong nag- iimbita sa lahat ng members ng group na eto upang makisaya sa akin sa araw na iyon. god, im old. ohhh, gets mo na kung anong araw ang sinasabi ko? at kung hindi pa rin.. pagtatakhan ko kung kaibigan nga ba talaga kita.. walangja!
good thing i sent this invitation ahead.. as in ahead of time.. for the benefit of those who do not often check their mails. eto, sana ay maabot pa eto ng mga precious ninyong time.
PAKIUSAP: sana. mali. Dapat. ako ay nagdedemand. na kayo ay pumunta sa araw na iyon. lubos kong ikagagalak ang inyo pong presensya!
when: dapat alam mo na.. basta friday yun.
time: pag wala ng araw. game na. hindi mo gugustuhing ma-late, i tell you.
where: hihi. i have yet to decide.
what: wala lang. papawiin ko ang uhaw nyo! sure yan!!!
imiszyu aLL. see you all...
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Saturday, February 25, 2006
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Friday, February 24, 2006
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
can you feel the beat?
1:14 PM
strike3. 1. 1... bucket+ sisig+calamari+walang katapusang katatawanan= big night! we had more fun than we thought. hala. deleted baga lahat ng pics ko sa cam. bad trip. dko pa naa- upload yun. at least 1/3 of it. feb fair. star city. ibm. tita's bday. and all other pics. gRgRgRRggrrrr. inis. suya. sira. oh well. wala na. all gone. here's what's left. puro kakulitan. mukhang tanga. ahahahhh!! 5 days in a row. puro alcohol na katawan ko. lumalakas na. matagal nang tumama. ahahahhh. practice makes perfect. i just learned of a thing. something. whatever you call it.habang nagpapakagaga ako over a game.a project i meant doing. over some katangahan. there they were. having troubles on the other side. i was never sorry when i learned about it. sad. i must admit. but never sorry. i believe. i think. it brings me back the feeling of having it all. and in an instance. gone. all gone. guilty? probably. maybe. it got me thinkin' ... am i really a good player? i'd like to think none of my kagagahans contributed or even so aggravated the situation. siguro nga guilty lang ako. siguro nga hindi ko lang matanggap na kung kelan pwede na ang hindi e hindi pa rin tama ang mali. na kahit kelan ay hindi na magiging tama ang mga maling simula. na may mga bagay na sadyang hindi para sayo no matter how much you want it or try to have it. i do not take comfort in knowing that i got what i wanted. was it really what i wanted? or was i just being mean? it's been a year. almost. just now i realize. i cannot. i can never really let go of something i never had. it will always. and always just be there. haunting you. enslaving you. i do not wish to be freed from that haunting. from that enslavement. if it will mean not having you. not having you at all. waaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i thought i was over it. for a while, i thought it was. i was. but then again, the haunting just gets even more wanting. as if you've always wanted to be haunted. i try to make myself as distant as possible. but the more i get distant, the more i get even closer. even more longing. even more needing. resolution: nothing i can really do to forget it all. hindi madedelete kagaya ng entries sa blog na eto. memories will always be memories. unless nagka- amnesia ako. the best that i can do with this worse situation is >> accept the fact that it can never be. at least sa mga panahong ito. >ahahahh.. who knows.. you. i . we can never. NEVER SAY NEVER as what my friend always tells me<> >>try to get used to the feeling without doing anything about it. it'll pass. hope so. >> i know i cannot. can but not let it go. @ least get a life tin! apart from all the katangahan at kagagahan. ahahahhhhh! and that's the way to live it! aha! .. aha! i like it... ahhhhhhhhaaaahahaaaaaHhhh! o ayan. sira mode nanaman ako. psycho me. * imissyou. pout.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
it's so nice to be happy.. shalala.. ahahahahhh.. uuyyy, kumakanta sya.. ahihihih. well anyway, let the blogging begin...
wednesday night: hindi ako makatulog. ewan ko ba. basta, uneasy. ansama sa pakiramdam na gusto mo nang matulog but you cannot. you would not. btw, i got tita's new cp, SE K750i. gorgeous! she had to treat me for doing so. ahahahahhh! veggie pizza @ pizza hut.
fyi: im a vegetarian. no meat. but not all meat. ahahahaahh!! huliii kaa! hmmm.. kaw nag isip nyan hindi ako. (but not all meat. i mean. i do eat chicken.)
thursday night: pre-bday for tita. lights will do. pampatulog lang. solb. oks. hihi.
friday night: am suppose to go back to UP for the feb fair. i did not. mood swings. uminom lang mag isa. why not.
saturday night: nagluto si tita ng isang masarap na dinner. ohh so yummy dinner. friends came over to celebrate with us. kantahan. inuman. bailey's baby.
sunday night: celebrate good times c'mon! ahahahahh! it was a choice. whole-heartedly decided on it. you must have been really special. must have been. must be. bettter be. one sweet asShoLe. maaga pa ang gabi. sayang. labas tayo. went to baywalk. Nthology. ate. drank. chitchat. had fun. got drunk. masaya. masaya talaga. no words to describe it. went home together. call it a day. good day. one of my bests.
last night, ez and i were suppose to have coffee. (baka sakaling magising ako at matauhan) i was already there. 6750 corner. waiting. waiting. haluy mo ez. hehe. di, kei lng. it gave me time to compose myself. there she was. late. ahihihhih. gutom ang lola mo. so we had to go somewhere we can have something to put in her empty big chan. ahhahahah. just kidding. ayun. The Big Grill. somewhere G2 side. mala. kain o inom? uhaw. inom sempre. ahahahhh.
can you feel the beat?
2:10 PM
tita koh. wife to my uncle. mother to my cousin franc. sine- buddy. friend. COOL... ohh soo CooL tita. kainuman. kachismisan. mabait. caring. masarap magluto. carefree. galaera. oh well, nasa pamilya. ahehehe. open- minded. madaldal. makuwento. masaya kasama. kajam. strong. matatag. the epitome of energy.. heheheh. walang kapaguran 'to, mapagala o work, kaastigan tong babaeng to. 02.19 birthday. labyu.
Monday, February 20, 2006
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Friday, February 17, 2006
02.17.06
masaya. ano nga ba yun. pano nga ba nakukuha. nakakamit. natatamo. isa. dalawa. tatlong oras nakong nakahiga. ayaw. di dalawin ng antok. langyah. gustooo ko nang matulog. apat. lima. p*ksh*t umaga na. dilat pa rin mga mata ko. bumaba nako. uminon ng tubig. turn the tv on. chips. hay. music channel. restless. confused. there i was. lying. wandering. all my life.. di pako mamamatay but my life seems to be flashing right before the very pretty me.. all i ever wanted was to be happy! one need after another. one satisfaction after the next. i do want i want. go wherever i wanna be. buy stuff that i like. spend as much as i wish. nung bata ako, sabi ko mag-aaral akong mabuti. magtatapos. magtatrabaho. bibilhin ang lahat ng naisin. eventually mag-aasawa. mabubuhay ng matahimik. and at the end of it all, dadating ang dapithapon at sadyang titigil ang bawat pintig. yayao. lahat yun, nung bata ako, kala ko sa bawat yugto na matatamo, magiging masaya ako. walang ibang dapat maramdaman kundi pasaya. ng pasaya.. ng pasaya.. ang buhay. hindi nako bata ngayon. pero sa aking konsepto ng saya, tila hindi ko pa rin matanto "precisely" para sa akin ang salitang iyon. sa bawat yugtong pinagdaanan, tila panandalian lahat ng tuwa. lahat nagmamaliw. minsan nga iniisip ko, kung lahat lahat kaya ng naisin ko e makuha ko, maging maligaya na kaya talaga ako? kung hindi, what does it take to be hapPy? magkano ba? saan ba? kanino ba? paaNo?
hay.windang moments. they come. they go. happy?
friday ngayon. gimik night. waa ako sa mood. i want to be alone. alone as in just by me, myself and i, alone.
can you feel the beat?
4:06 PM
Thursday, February 16, 2006
02.14.06
valentine's day. tulog buong araw. at baket? =) feeling mo naman may date ka kinagabihan... yep, date with my friends. punta kami UP, feb f air. gabi na nang dumating kami dun. salamat sa traffic. pagdating palang, kaenga-enganyo ang paligid. asows. uU. pormado pa naman ako. tayuan at lakaran pala yun. akalain mo yun! no kidding, 'twas ok. tagabo ang sounds. jam-packed. sold out ang tickets. so wacha think? ;) umaga na nang umuwi kame. isang masayang umaga. salamat.
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2:11 PM
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
02.14.06
matalino daw ako. composed. matigas.
pero pag puso ang pinag uusapan, marami- raming beses na yatang i haven't been me. noon, sabi ko. pag dumating sya, yun na yun. walang bitawan. walang ayawan. pero hindi pala kasing simple ng 1+1 ang pag- ibig. may pagkakataong napagod ako. walang mali. lahat ok. pero hindi pala yun ang inaakala kong yun na yun. may pagkakataong, magpapahinga muna ang pusong pagod. may pagkakataong may kumatok. matalino nga bang magpapasok uli? matalino man o hindi, nandun n naman. yun. fairytale romance. saya. kala mo uli yun na yun. hindi pa rin pala. at sa isang di inaasahang pagkakataon matapos ang mahaba habang pamamahinga, muling nasubukan ang ating katalinuhan. palpak nga sigurong matatawag. may mga bagay na sadyang hindi para sa atin. meron namang gagong ayaw mong papasukin pero sadyang nandon na even before you know it. subalit hindi pwede. maling simula. maling pagkakataon. kung may tamang panahon man. ayoko nang hintayin. masaya na akong kahit sa habambuhay na eto ay mag pagkakataon para sa atin.
siguro nga hindi kelangang maging matalino pagdating sa pag- ibig. hindi kelangang matigas. dahil ang puso daw pag tumibok hahamakin ang lahat masunod ka lamang. hay. valentine rush.
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12:23 PM
Monday, February 13, 2006
hay.yay.yay.
i saved a draft of a long-week blog yesterday only to find out ngayon ngayon lang na wala palang nasave. akalain mo yun! hmmmp. again. again. again.
from the top.
last blog date 01.28.06
what happened thereafter...
01.31.06
technically, last day with ibm. but of course i had to stay for the turn-over. and so i did.
02.02.06
went out with ibm peepz. went drinkin' and billiards @ top venue. cool. first time with them. fun. good. clean.
02.03.06
yan, last day ko na talaga. was late in coming to office. brought food for the despedida. sent my thank you emails. and had a moment feeling sad. kakalungkot din pala. why not. ibm gave me a lot of firsts i will not forget, ever.
ang tulog ko ng gabing eto ang pinakamasarap na tulog ko in 4months. why not. i deserve it.
02.07.06
tapos one day ang clearance. ayus. e-bar with ibm peepz nung gabi. yun. masaya. hala. ralasing baga. ahahahah! hilo hilo pagdating sa bahay. in fairness, had fun that night.
02.09.06
exemplar eldhee's birthday. pi birthday bro.
02.12.06
star city with sj peepz. enjoy of course. ang big sister nanlamig. ninerbyos sa mga rides. hehe. aminin mo nasayahan ka naman sa mga kakakabang rides daba! hihi.
back to reality.
ngayon ay ika- 13 sa buwan ng pebrero, love month. bukas ay mabenta ang mga bulaklak at restawran para sa date ng mga magsing- irog. corniness o rOmanticness? bahla kna. kung san ka masaya dun ka. wehehe. ako? single. by choice. pero masaya! sya nga ba? ahhh.. hmm.. ehh.. ohh.. ahahahahh... ooo noh, saya...
but open to doubling opportunities..wink.wink.
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