Monday, June 05, 2006
the longest journey is the journey inwards. i had everything a girl could ever ask for! it took me 23 years before finally realizing that.. 23 wonderful years. i grew up with no father. HE took him away in an ambush when i was 2. i was a consistent honor student form kindergarten all the way to college. i even graduated cum laude from ateneo. achiever daw ako. i feel the love and respect my family has in me. hindi kami mayaman but i never slept in a mainit, matigas at maingay na kwarto. i was a princess. i get to buy the things that i want. i even get to decide on my own. i was raised well. i was loved well. life isn't perfect but i was fine.. i was more than fine.
sometimes, well most of the times lately, i wonder why or how or what for do i have to come to this.. maybe it's inevitable. maybe it's not. maybe i've just met a few too many wrong people or went through too many detours. maybe i just have to unlearn some things, get back on track, and be more fiddled with to this world and mine's insanities. maybe i'm just being dramatic about all these. whatever it may be.. i feel it is time for me to take some time off..
i'm a 1 gig system corrupted by time & circumstance necessitating serious debugging. i'm a restless heart finding its way back home. i'm a hot air balloon flying over with no direction. a time bomb waiting to explode. a cocoon willingly anticipating to become something else. a soul lost so deep i wanna find my self again. . *waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
and how far away can home be?
i don't know.
can you feel the beat?
7:57 PM