Thursday, April 27, 2006
zra.ive always loved this girl. always consoling. always a listening ear.. a shoulder to cry on. she always says the right things just when i always think im the one who's right. ewan ko ba. sa lahat ng mga bruha. loka loka. authistic. sya na yta ang pinakalab ko. wala. none of what i will say in this blog will make me ever express how much i mean for this friend. stay happy. or is it be happy. keep rockin. stay sexy. and let the dogs drool over the goddesses on earth.. us! waaaa ha ha! happy birthday my dear. labyu.
can you feel the beat?
3:56 PM
Wednesday, April 19, 2006
17-18-1-3-5whenever i hear her name, wala akong mapagsidlan ng hindi ko maipaliwanag na mixed emotions. awa. bilib. takot. panghihinayang. hindi ko mawari ng lubusan. hindi kami close. hindi rin kami friends. isang beses ko lang sya nakita. sa bundok kung saan nag-aaral sila ng boyfriend nya noon. napunta ako dun kasama si ros. isang makaengganyong imbitasyon ng kasiyahan ang nagdala samin sa liblib na yon. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit napapayag akong sumama. hindi ko rin alam kung para san ang imbitasyon. hindi naman yung nag imbita ang gagradweyt. sya, na walang alam ang gagradweyt. hi helo lang sa isis. jam with hs friends kasama sya. hindi pa nga ko kumain ng tokwa't baboy (ata yun) na inorder nya. pangkaraniwang pangalan. extraordinary girl. yun lang ang alam ko sa kanya.ahhh wait, bakit nga ba sya ang punong paksa dito ngayon. i txted her last black saturday. kaswal lang. she was nice enough to send a reply. i forgot about her until today. or did i not forget about her at all?hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ba. all i know is that i have something im not even sure she cared knowing about. in time, she will.siguro nga gusto lang kitang maalala. para minsan pa tingnan ko ang sarili ko. you're a smart girl! don't settle for anything less than what you deserve. do you not see? i may not be in the position.. neither do you.isang tanong lang. i dont have to convince whoever.you dont even have to answer.just one question..
do you not see?*
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4:47 PM
a cup !n hand
u kn0w 8s
worth
your whiLE..
a cup !n hand
lets s!t
& stay
for a whILe..
lets s!p,
lets taLk
1 mOment..
1 nescafe..
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2:59 PM
Sunday, April 16, 2006
was not able to go to puerto galera. some asshoLe lied. well its not the first time. weniwei, tutong pa rin ako. nag beach pa rin lola mo. tan kung tan. hala turutong baga. hehe. friends and relatives went home to bicol for the holy week. it was an almost boring hometown spending season. almost. *smiles. just gLad it was not.
tuesday night, went out with boys: ros, harold, baloy, erg, ic @ beer pLaza. saya. inuman sa gitna ng simbahan at kapitolyo.. sankapa!? :) isang masayang gabi ng celebration nanaman. yeah boy!
thursday night, friendships went out again. jograd bar with donel, ros, ic, billy, lalen, baloy, jojo, etc. ralasing baga.. shhh. ;)
black saturday wave party @ the beach. dont ask. its obviously a "holy week" of alcohol. umulan ng alak at walang humpay na kasiyahan.
on dates i cannot remember, walang kapagurang languyan with the family almost every day. got to spend time with cousins, uncles, and aunts.
and with friends on black saturday. it was fun. t'was a lotta fun! too bad my cam is down. charger left in manila.
hay. what a way to celebrate Lenten '06. over now. back to reality. happy easter btw. (the family had the easter egg hunt saturday)
can you feel the beat?
7:47 PM
Friday, April 07, 2006
im back! dame na ng nangyari.. went to manila for franc's christening. my uncle arrived already. uncle nano's wedding last sunday. haning, nikki, jake, xyla's graduation. went back to bicol. han went to vegas for a business trip. watched IceAge2, AeonFlux, Final Destination3, Fearless. read The Notebook and The Valkyries. Auntie Ely with the family went to Corregidor. i visited my dentist. Tita's came home from Italy. beach. sand. and liars. friends coming home. people going.. people coming..
and here i am.. unmoved. unmoved? or not wanting to move?
when im in the moOd to be moved to post another entry about anything that can move me.. magsusulat ako.. for nOw.. let me enjoy this mOment to be with you.. for another one last time..
paalam tita star. the whole family will miss you. we all are now. thankyou for a lifetime of joy with you. may you find peace now whereever you are. we all love you! paalam.
*tita star died of cardiac arrest. it was not the first time she was brought to the hospital when deadly heart attacks. but its time this time. and so our sad goodbye's to our beloved star. paalam!
btw, the pics above are taken succedingly. im lazy telling the story about what happened. anyway, the pictures will speak for itself. good thing im alive. that's a good sign. no matter what im going through right nOw i still feel grateful to be feeling alive.. to be feeling all these madness inside. outside. around. everywhere. yeah. thankgod im alive! still so much to do..chiLL.
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6:01 PM