prettywoman

2007-07-15T15:36:00.000+08:00

its sunday @ i am soooo tired! hell of a week. the truth is i don't wanna be here. been lazy updating my blog, only because there's just too much happening with me that this blog can't keep up anymore. well lemme try what i can remember:

wimbledon 2007 champs:
men's singles- roger federer *wuhooo!
women's singles- venus williams

movies:
transformers @ trinoma THE BEST!
die hard @ the block SO..SO
harry potter @ glorietta I GOT SLEEPY.

dates:
ezra, sheila, lheila @ greenbelt-cafe breton, ebun
uncle cox-trinoma
phi bar-kaj, jerome, chlo, mharose
sm city- knina lang with franc, naglaro kami, kapagod pero saya
daise- tomorrow @ eastwood
huge- haven't seen him in what?4 months?

work:
spreadsheets, telecon preps, 25k, analysis, GR/IR, processing, vendor queries, at ang malupet na exam last july 12 & 13. wastig! tinalo pa ang board exam sa hirap.

mom:
i miss her! i want to buy her stuff; travel with her

che:
so happy that she finally cleared in school

friends:
hs friends i haven't been with going out or staying with in a friend's house

i'm fine most of the time.. on the other time i will not mention, im just the bitchy-bratty-hyperactive-4-hour-sleep-a-day girl.

right now, im just tired and i want to sleep long enough that when i wake up i wont remember how i get to bed.

2007-07-07T21:47:00.001+08:00

7-7-7

just a reminder that the next time this date stamps on your calendar, none of us will be here.

2007-06-23T08:33:00.000+08:00

happy birthday!

lalen idnani

john vigno

... yes, i'm still in the office. yah know, its quarter-end next week. work. work. work. argggggg...

haunting... he has this longing looks... i hate. i hate. i love.

2007-06-23T08:17:00.000+08:00

it was May 2006 when the hit tv series came to an end. i was dying to see season 4 & 5, most of which i did not have the chance seeing. *i'm a huge huge jen garner fan. i did not realize that how i liked alias then wouldn't compare to how i love it today... that i have completed reliving all the 5 seasons. i just don't understand how it struck me & hit me to an immeasurable degree... now that it has all ended. michael vartan's popularity soared even higher, well thanks of course to alias. everything in it i just love.

basta, i'm beyond words when it comes to alias. clearly, i'm not yet over it.

*one of my fantasies... naahhh, i changed my mind. me not telling here. not today.

i love you dad!

2007-06-18T19:22:00.000+08:00

i never had the chance to see how my father was... but i'm sure, i'm more than sure that he's great. even the worse lovers, born criminals, drug lords, chronic liars, even among them are some of the greatest fathers there can ever be... i just wish that i had the time to tell my dad in person how much i miss not having him around; how much i want to hug him; how much i can make him proud... :( time never gave me that... chance. and maybe or maybe not, just now i'm thinking, that all the while i was looking for someone to take care of me like a man in the image of my father would do. all these bursts of loneliness inside, all the longings & the undeciphered sadness belongs to my father. God, i miss you!

and today i send you my love and a happy father's day! i love you dad!

2007-06-12T05:20:00.000+08:00

blah_

Weekend has never been like staying in an 8x4 prison cell where escape seems impracticable except that the house is not an 8x4 place & I have the luxury of connecting to the internet, cooking my own food, taking baths whenever heat strokes, and an endless unguarded possibility of doing things my way. Why not, no one was home except me. Don’t you just love it, the freedom of doing the things you want in solitary? To own the world you want to believe is good enough to cradle your aspiration? Sleep as long as you want, wake up whenever you like it, dial the fast food for a delivery, and live in an imaginable world for as long you can bear it? I am lucky to have the life that I have now no matter what. I guess that’s just what I’m trying to get at. I’m living my life. Because you know, I don’t want to wake up one day, and realize that I’m trapped in my own desires. Betrayed by the very people I care about. And has lived a life fabricated by the choices I can no longer undo. And that’s my blah_blah for the day. =)

2007-06-08T03:04:00.000+08:00

the thing is... i should not have come to work today due to dysmenorrhea... but i did. and actually, i have just come from my break and am now faced to my monitor which looks like this>>>
yes, i have two monitors and yes i work with a lot of stuff.

i had a fun fun weekend dahil birthday ni nanay, ng lola ko who turned 77th last june 01. masaya, like always, ang uwi kong ito. friday, dahil nakaleave ako, e nagbyahe nako kasama si des at si franc. excited kaming lahat na makita uli cousins namin dun at sempre ako, si mama at si che. parang laging summer kasi lagi kaming nagbe beach. bagasbas in daet is our version of boracay, except that it isn't white sand. saturday was the when the party was held. party dahil kahit kami kami magkakamag-anak lang ang bisita e parang buong barangay ang imbitado sa dami namin. linggo naman nang magkainuman kaming lahat. at linggo rin ng gabi nang kami ay bumalik na dito sa manila.

the whole week is tiring. work is loaded. and my muscles can't stop aching. which reminds me to go to pains&rehab in megamall to have my back checked. thanks to maxicare. ewan ko ba kung ano ang meron sa linggong ito na andami dami kong ginagawa at kahit pagod akong umuuwi sa bahay from work e hirap ako makatulog. btw, natapos ko na ulitin ang season 1 ng ALIAS dahil sa pagpaantok ko araw araw. nakapag update na rin uli ako ng layout ng friendster ko. at naupload ko na ang mga bagong pics at video from weekend's fun. natarayan na rin akong ng isang dambuhalang bading na taga-IAR dahil sa isang *i mean, maraming error na hindi lang naman ako ang may kasalanan. i'm sure ayaw mong idetalye ko dito kung ano ang nangyari dahil hindi mo rin gugustuhing matarayan ng dambuhalang bading na yun. kaya hayaan na lang natin sya sa kanyang kabadingan.

>intermission number: lumapit ang officemate ko at may clinarify about sa request nya na di ko ginawa... di pa. ayan isesend daw nya sagot nya sa email ko. wait lang. babalik ako after 5 minutes. =) ay mamaya na lang daw. ay tumawag supervisor ko. *yes maam ginawa ko na po.

asan na nga ba tayo? at kung itinatanong mo ngayon kung ok lang ba ang ginagawa kong ngayon.. depende kung kanino mo itatanong? kung sa mga bossing ko sempre hindi, due to productivity per day churva KPI SLA eekk ekk. pero kung akong tatanungin mo, ok lang to. stress-reliever lang. 15 more minutes and i will have told you anything that i want to get out of my rumbling head right now. speaking of rumbling, ic just contacted me last tuesday. ahah, sa dami ng araw e sa june 5 pa nya nagustuhang magparamdam sakin. significance ng date? wala. pero may 5. marami. that will need another entry to this so let's not dig into details. i missed him. i've been missing him. salamat naman at buhay pa ang ungas. i think everyone's doing great. everyone meaning my highschool buddies. tahimik ang mga tao lately at mukhang busy rin sa mga buhay buhay. huge just invited me again for dinner last wednesday. well maybe because i still owe him one. and naturally, which is not natural, i declined. pagod lang talaga ako. yun lang ang reason. damn, i so wanna see him and have a good laugh with that person. he's the love of my life that i never had.. *go ahead qoute me on this. *thought to myself: let it go. the one that got away, got away.
friday na ngayon gumaan gaan na pakiramdam ko. i have the whole weekend to take a rest. uuwi ng pangasinan lahat ng tao sa bahay. akin ang bahay ngayon weekend. anyone? haha. ay, may gagawin din pala ko sa weekend aside from going to pains& rehab. watch pala kami ng buddy ko oceans 13. my laundry is piling up so gotta get down on them. iinum ako. waaah. anyone again? where have all the people gone? i am so missing everyone! i have a new number, that's one maybe. but i forwarded my number to everyone, haven't i?

zzzp. 15mins is over. sa susunod uli. ;) wait. i'd like to thank clint for the chocolates he sent me and the team. *sya yung taga UK na contact ng company namin na siguro e naaaliw sa akin kaya padala ng padala ng chocolates. hahaha. thanks.

2007-05-30T10:20:00.000+08:00

bumaba ako sa building namin kagabi. bumili taho at chicken balls. hihi. *takaw.

RANDOM THOUGHTS.

2007-05-27T03:49:00.000+08:00

RANDOM THOUGHTS.

i am back.
i am so back! haha.
i’m an angel.
i think…
i’m excited for next weekend. weee!
i'm flying back home.
pringles. sweet corn. donuts.
i miss you.
do you?
rain's starting to piss me off.
fun long weekend.
LOVE is a heavy word.
i think it’s for two perfectly crazy persons who in the right state of mind meet @ the right timing @ the right place for the right reasons.
i make sense sometimes.
well, most of the times. hihi.
pirates on saturday. dinner @ burgoo. pier one afterwards.
girls' night out on sunday.
spa day on monday.
coffee with zra on tuesday.
shrocks, still haven’t seen shrek.
9 ventis to zra.
missed maxim’s party last thursday.
loving my new phone.
new line. new life.
still don’t have my number yet?
send me a note.
i am excited to go home for my lola’s birthday.
franc’s got a star from school. so mommylike happy. ;)
i think i'm ready for a baby.
hahahahahahaha.
i take that back. i'm not!
at least not yet.
i’m starting to gain weight.
am i?
i feel hungry again *1:31am
trip to
Shanghaiby Shell. cool. way cool.
if he wants to leave nothing can make him stay.
if he comes back. he's mine to keep.
i can’t wait forever.
but I will.
i guess...
sometimes i wonder why i let you make me happy when i know you’re going to make me equally sad when you’re no longer there.
is it a deal or no deal?
i am 24. god, i’m old.
time once lost cannot be recovered.
currently watching urban zone.
drunk. =)
sometimes you have to be lost to find yourself again.
this is a season of change.
i wonder what’s running in your head…
when you told me i had no idea how much I mean to you….
you l*ve me everyday…
that you l*Ve me more…
na hindi ka naman nawala. if it isn’t l*ve then you wouldn’t be there all over again…
that you can’t leave…
and that you won’t leave…
Me…
just wonderin again... where have you gone now??
promises?
lies?
or just another falling in falling out?
or maybe preparing for something even bigger. greater.
*wishful thinking.
when everything’s right I know you’ll be ready.
i know you’ll meet me there.
i just know.
because if not, then it must be a really sad fairtytale ending.
shocks, my laundry.
shocks, it’s accounting closing next week.
GRIR. KPI's. overdues. parked. hope they'll be no spreadsheets.
haha. good, i’m on leave on friday.
falalala. my phone is ringing.
wait.
yiheeee.
*smiles.
just when you think life couldn't be more fun, it gives you more reason to smile...
life isn’t supposed to be complicated.
been spending quiet after work mornings playing with franc & watching reruns of ALIAS.
na proclaim na ba mga senador?
bumoto ka ba in the first place?
i’m thinking…
nahh. batch of me to do that…
again.
J
i want to buy a house.
like the **M mansion of manny pacquiao.
hehehe.
i deferred my MBA for maybe next year.
it’s a good life.
it’s a charmed life.
i hate the next season.
weddings.
i am so loving way back into love.
always almost put me to tears.
there are moments when i don’t know if it’s real
or if anybody feels the way i feel
i need inspiration, not just another negotiation
all i want to do is find a way back into love
i can’t make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart to you
im hopin you'll show me what to do
and if you help me to start again
you know that I'll be there for you in the end
ice cream & pizza
yeah, i remember
i never forget!
i would ran away, i would ran away, i would ran away with you…
on imeem listening to my playlist.
starting to update all my accounts.
Memorial Day tomorrow,Monday.
US holiday means no work for me.
i am just too drunk to feel anything right now.
embrace me.
thoughts keep raging inside my head.
and although i can stay awake for as long as i want to
i think i better be allowing sleep to bring me to neverland for one more time now so lemme just leave you with something to ponder about…
Peter Parker: Whatever comes our way, whatever battle we have raging inside us, we always have a choice, my friend Harry taught me that. he chose to be the best of himself. it's the choices that make us who we are, and we can always choose to do what's right.

goodnight.goodmorning.
mwah_mwah_mwah_mwah_mwah_mwah

2007-05-15T16:06:00.000+08:00

12. 13. 14. 15.

fa lalala. i'm back. i am so back! haha. i had a fun weekend. i had been excited to go home since last week. and finally... saturday *05.12 morning excited ako lumabas ng office to buy well pasalubong na GoNuts Donuts. i didn't have the time during the weekdays to go out & really buy them something. hell, i was early in cubao. why didn't i know that gonuts opens @ 8am?! i was an hour early. oh well, naghintay ako mag open sila, of course. i thought i was gonna sleep during the trip but just when i thought i was haha look who i saw? ang dormmate ko sa ateneo na 100 years ko nang di nakikita mula grumadweyt ako. hala e di chika ever kami. ayun. ngarag baga. at asus pag sineswerte ka nga naman. nasiraan pa kami. 12 hours tuloy byahe namin. hangtagal diva? ayun gabi na ng sat ng makarating ako ng bahay. at dahil miting de avance nung gabi, sa may KSarap sa centro nako sinundo nina mama. chika konti @ nakatulog na rin ako sa wakas. i'm home & it feels so good. sunday *05.13 came at ang aga ko nagising. excited mag swimming. it's mother's day and i decided to give my mom a treat. swimming kami the whole day @ pineapple island resort. it was fun. monday *05.14 is one of those days you feel like making a difference & wishfully hoping for world peace. yeah, its election time again. good to be exercising your right. hay. i'm back in the city again. goodluck. *post the slides later.

2007-05-06T13:16:00.000+08:00

dela hoya vs. maywheather
the world awaits...

... no more. and so the big event unfolds today, 05.06.07 in MGM Grand Arena, Las Vegas, Nevada. with so much depth in both's arsenal, this highly-anticipated fight's promise really quenched everyone's anticipation. i personally think it would be a great fight, and indeed after having saw it, it was a fight to go down the pages of history as one of the boxing arena's greats. with pretty boy's angst and golden boy's reputation, the huge crowd roars as every power punch is exchanged. at the end of the day, the world awaits for the final decision as they go down to the scorecards with a split decision...

making FLOYD MAYWEATHER the new SUPER WELTERWEIGHT CHAMPION OF THE WORLD (WBC) and the reigning WELTERWEIGHT CHAMPION OF THE WORLD (WBC)

*omg. i just lost my bet on this. personally, i don't think dela hoya lost that match. the whole time, he was the one who threw & hit more punches, he dominated every round. he glides swiftly in the canvas leaving mayweather just another pretty boy in the ring with nothing.

tin on 04/01/2007

2007-05-01T23:33:00.000+08:00

preoccupied. hibernating.

2007-04-18T04:45:00.000+08:00

i have never met a man as confused as IC. one day he would tell me how much he loves me and on another day he'd be so cold that I won't even notice he exists. damn, I have never loved a confused man as I have loved IC... as I am loving IC.

*swerte talaga ng ungas na 'to.

2007-04-17T04:54:00.000+08:00

i wish i knew how to quit you!

pakshit ka!

2007-04-13T05:14:00.000+08:00

the only reason why i'm here right now is because i'm too hyperacidity at this point. haha. hyperacidity my tyan. haha. i'm wandering right now. and if this isn't going anywhere haha lucky 13 to you. haha. 6:03 na pwede nakong umuwi. pano hanggang mamya uli. mag iisip ako ng entry. if nothing follows... (wala akong naisip) haha.

*loka loka mode.

2007-04-02T09:31:00.000+08:00

300 http://300themovie.warnerbros.com//

as one friend puts it... BLOODY BEAUTIFUL!

saturday afternoon after the march 2007 accounting books have closed, restless & sleep- deprived, 300 is a definite treat for me... t'was awesome!

SITI & CFCA TeamBuilding

2007-03-28T10:28:00.001+08:00

i'm always going to miss you...

2007-03-25T03:25:00.000+08:00

i'm always going to miss you...

In a world where people come and go, how do you let go of someone you never really had? Where do you draw the line between hanging on and letting go? Someone once told me that coincidence is no coincidence. That sometimes some things just are meant to happen. That we ought to fall on certain points and get up on another. Along this life’s journey, I believe that each choice we make leads to doors that present both opportunities & risks we have to battle out every single breathing moment.

Not too long ago, I found myself streaming with sadness as I fight back the longing for someone I have gotten connection with. I have always hated endings and goodbyes and all the stuff that makes me sad… really sad. I abhor the idea that I will have to journey ahead less the people I have had deep connections with. And yet no matter how I hated each time like this I had never been afraid to journey ahead with souls who are as equally lost as I always get. Some souls aren’t really lost; some I just cannot blame…

There can be no perfect time to let go & say goodbye, it’ll always be leaving some blues in the memories we want to zip as only good memories. If only I can snap out of it, of that tearing apart moment, and be where no ache resides, I’d be… but time has its own clock where no one can adjust. And although I have loved the person defining me with so much precision, like no other, I feel that *it is the time.

*... Because sometimes. Some things. Just aren’t meant to be. And it’s because people choose not to let them happen.

*I thought you should know, you were happy once... with me.*
The Butterfly Effect

24th birthday!

2007-03-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

2007-02-18T01:37:00.000+08:00

huge...

1:37am Sunday February 18, 2007

an hour 37 minutes past his birthday and i haven't even notice that 34 years can pass by just like that. quiet and peaceful as he describes it puts a smile in my face just knowing that 10 years from now, i'll be in the same position as he is now (family woman with a hubby and kids of my own and probably many more friends than I thought I ever had)

for someone who made me laugh... for someone who will always make me laugh..

for someone who is always nice to talk with... and will always be fun to talk to..

for someone who surrounds me with so much delight... and will always haunt me with delight...

for a friend who i will forever and ever have...
for you..

Happy Birthday! (belated)

2007-02-02T04:46:00.000+08:00

hApPy PuSo!

sorry

2007-01-31T11:21:00.000+08:00

SORRY

A dose of coffee early in the morning stirs my senses from potential to kinetic energy. Doses of cold Strawberry Starbucks Cappuccino earlier in the morning just gave me my first fight of the year. *brain freeze* I did not see this coming neither was I anticipating for this but then it did… it came… in the most unexpected time. Just when I thought I was going to have a very good morning and/or day for that matter, I did not. The truth is I have not yet slept in more than 24 hours now. Not that I don’t want to because If I choose to, I can, but the thing is, I can’t. How can I let slumber take me in when over some *petty reason* I could lose someone I have gotten close with… a good friend, the moment I have awaken. I’m not sure if this thought is going anywhere close to making sense. Neither am I sure if today or in the days to come I still can call him friend. I’m not sure. I don’t know… And honestly, it’s starting to scare me… it does now… to one day wake up and never have him again. I don’t want to make anymore excuses, let me just say…

I am deeply sorry for whatever I may have done!

*I hope the happy days are not overshadowed by one bad coffee day…

5 minutes...

2007-01-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

5 minutes...

Barely 5 minutes ago, I was asked upfront what do you want at this very moment? And then I started thinking.. pondering at that very moment 5 minutes ago what is it that I really want at that very moment..

I want a man… I want a man! I needingly said. Then the person who came right in front of me out of nowhere disappeared in a flash. * This is no hallucination. I am at work and the person I am referring to is an officemate. But of course for blogging purposes let’s pretend to delete this annotation =) * I think I saw her smirk after I gave my answer. I do not know what that was for but I guess that smirk made me realize that it’s not only 5 minutes ago that I want a man in my life. I have wanted him for as long as I can remember but never came across to meeting that one man who will prove me that life indeed is much more worth living when you’re sharing it with someone special.
Someone who isn't perfect *as no one is* but someone who is real.
Someone who can put up with all that I am.
Someone I can have a good laugh & a good conversation with.
Someone who at the end of the day no matter how filty & ngarag I may be will still say,
that's my woman & i love her just the same!

I always say this and will always be saying this until that one day when I will come bumping into that man…

I would want to find a man who is strong enough to catch me!

Dilemma, I have been having for quite a time now but rarely do I put focus on needingly wanting him until 5 minutes ago..

I’m a princess with no prince.
..A lady without a man.
..A damsel in distress.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy. It’s just that I know I can be happier!

Thoughts are rumbling in my head and I can’t seem to get them all out. Do you not wish that sometimes you weren’t a princess so you won’t need a prince? That sometimes things are different? That we don’t have to pretend we do not want something when all our being is roaring to need it? That sometimes at the end of the rainbow the’ll be someone with a bouquet of roses.. or even just a rose.. a red one.. with long stem.. and no thorns? *smiles *

I’m word vomiting right now.. do you not notice? I’m in front of my desktop with much work to do and I can’t grasp any fiber of sanity in me right now. I think I need a dose of a heart- palpitating Starbucks coffee *which reminds me of a date with my batchmates on Monday for our monthsary*

Now I’m smiling.. and wondrin’ why?

Why not?

*zZzZpPp.. thoughts keep me awake.. thank you!

2007-01-13T06:47:00.000+08:00

a late Merry Christmas & Happy New Year!

see the many colors?

this is how i want this year to be...

and this is exactly how i intend to live it! ;)

2006-12-02T10:53:00.000+08:00

i was busy running after the goats..

then i woke up..

and its December...

and it awed me in various ways i cannot fully comprehend..

..its December..

and i'm still running after the goats...

???

PACMAN DAY

2006-11-20T15:03:00.000+08:00

I'm suppose to go to work (yes, even on a Sunday) yesterday but I opted to extend my work hours on Saturday so I would not have to come to work on the big day.. that is Manny Pacquiao's match with Mexico's Erik Morales. January pa lang sa second fight nila, I'm already anticipating this Grand Finale, not that I was excited to bet again (because every Manny's game gives me money) but more because I was wondering if Manny can get quicker, stronger, & better than what he already is.. Surprisingly, he does get even better every time he enters the ring. Yesterday, I woke up early to catch the big game.. I know I will be watching on tv on a delayed telecast but I wanted to see the game pa rin kahit alam ko nang panalo siya. My friend who is in the States gave me the latest update as he was watching it live there (with inom at inihaw na talaba, ininggit pako ng true-blue Noypi na friend kong ito)

Galing! yun ang nasabi ko sa performance (naks, performance daw talaga oh!) ni Manny. Kawawa! yan naman ang nasabi ko kay Erik Morales. He could have saved his already hall-of-fame-career blossoms but pride took him down where he shouldn't be. I could not say he put up a good fight. 2nd round palang knock down na sya. At sa 3rd round nga e hindi na nya kinaya ang mga suntok ng ating Pambansang Kamao. He gave in with a sobbing look in his eyes. Naawa ako more than nabilib.

But at the end of the day, it was not about Erik. It was about Manny & everyone else's triumph. We did it again, and another traffic- free, reason giving Sunday to be even proud na maging Pinoy! wUhoOooo!!!

2006-11-03T18:10:00.000+08:00

happy late halloween!

2006-10-25T13:18:00.000+08:00

i'm dying in envy...

i've missed a call from a friend in college, curious that i was i returned the call and found out that he just got what probably a number of you, reading right now, so beggingly asked from Him... i did!... i still do! i'm lying when i told him that i 'm happy for him, well actually i'm not, i am happy for him... but i'm dying in envy! and it had left me asking and sinning more & more now that i'm even blogging about it! waaaAAaAaHhHhHhhhHhHhH!!! life isn't fair! it never really was! i know that. but it hit me big time, this time!

i envy him for the courage & wisdom he endured all the drudging 2 straight years of his life.. i was close, i endured a year and a half! the only difference is that he finally got his prayers, i have yet to... iN tiMe... I WILL! i envy him that he only had to wait 2 years.. i envy him that his hard work all paid off.. he has nothing more to worry about.. i envy him that he can go home tonight sleep all the days of his life and wake up having the same vibrant feeling he has before sleeping.. i envy him and his girlfriend, who also is a friend of mine by the way, for both getting their hard prayed wish.. i envy him in every aspect i can think of right now! and it's bad. its a sin. it's what most of you call envy. i'm sinning. and i can't help it. i don't get envy... not for a long time. and i am feeling so bad right now that my 3hour sleep is starting to pull my heavy head back into my dungeon.. hehe. and/but i can't get back to sleep. i'm too envious right now. too sad? or too happy? i cannot tell.

i'm envious.. i'm glad. i'm sad. i can't even say congratulations for getting that CPA license. it's unfair!

2006-10-05T00:06:00.000+08:00

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Its 12:06 in the morning and I’m trying, really hard, to stay awake until my exam is given not later than 6am today. Tasked to study a VAT Flowchart, I feel the need to momentarily relax my deadbeat wits. Hardly any thoughts though run wild as I fight back the urge to lay down and let slumber take me in; my 2- year old cousin got sick needing us to bring him to the hospital @ 9 Saturday evening and stay there until today, Wednesday afternoon. Bronchi- pneumonia is the doctor’s official findings; my buddy Aiai’s birthday is coming up; the shoes I’m wearing right now are in ruins and I barely have the time or the money to buy a new one, something more hardwearing; contemplating on the things to buy this weekend; the coffee, free as it is here does not help this dilemma of mine to stay wide awake and I’m thinking if I can afford to stay late in the office today to attend the 2nd session of the dance class for an hour, an hour after office work since I live in relative distance from here. Thank you thoughts for keeping me half-awake. Back to reading…

2006-09-15T15:01:00.000+08:00

my very special someone...

my most important someone...

my stronghold...

ah labs yu mother!

2006-09-05T16:25:00.000+08:00

2006-08-29T17:19:00.000+08:00

Six Random Facts

Once tagged by this entry, write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. In the end of it, pick six of your friends and tag them! (No tag backs). This explanation must be included, of course.

1. Around 10 years ago, I underwent a minor surgery (in my left armpit) caused by a ceast which grew out of nowhere. No stitch marks can be traced since it was left open to heal on its own. Now, a slight bump(?) reminds me of it.

2. I was born, raised and practically grew up in bicol, daet, camarines norte to be exact.

3. I won the champions trophy in badminton (singles division) in my 3rd year (high school)beating all the other opponents. I eventually represented the school for the next level winning it all the way to where the school funds can bring us.. ;)

4. I Love this beagle...

5. I cry when i'm sad. I cry when i'm happy. ;)

6. I'd do anything for LoVe! oh yeah!

i Tag: tabz, megz, glenda, lilay, shla, zra

2006-08-20T19:56:00.000+08:00

i've been staring here for quite a time now thinking how or where to start. you're all over me today and i can't help it.. i just couldn't! i never hated you even when once i told you i did. i did not! how can i hate a man who's a million miles away yet whose warmth surrounds me so tenderly.

i woke up this morning with a smile.. last night was a nice chat. i so wanted to tell you how much you made me cry, how much pain you made me felt, how much weak you've made me become. that in all these longing times, i could never tell you enough how much i wanted to see you, to feel you, to make you mine!

today could have been a very special day. it could have been the first of many more good years to come. it could have.. but it cannot now. it's been a long year for me. a lot of things, both pleasant and not, happened with no anticipation. i did not expect you. but then you came. and you made me happy! and for that and many other reasons, salamat ng marami!

i don't know how this will reach you (you barely have the time) but in case 10-20-or-30 years from now, you may want to remember me, know that...

everything i told you is true.
i was not mad when you told me about paul philip.
i have come to accept the situation, whatever that is that you told me.
i honestly think, it could have been you. *i was praying...

today, after 525,600 minutes, i'm back to where it all begun.. the day you first made me smile.. rule #1. ako lang. 2. ako pa rin! 3. hintayin moko... aWww.. cute. sweet. gRrRrrRrrRrrr...

i wish no goodbyes were exchanged!

i wish no one had to let go!

i wish you were mine!

i wish... *

i guess what i'm really trying to say is...

I MISS YOU.

and

I'M ALWAYS GOING TO MISS YOU, MY BABY!

*you're the sweetest most endangered specie bakulaw-type i can ever have!!! i have no idea how much you mean to me!

2006-08-16T16:53:00.000+08:00

tin + mama + che

almira + john jerome + donalyn + alexis franz + kristine and kuya norman jay: despedida de kuya

nax! so kelangan tabachingching ang nasa unahan? bwahaha!

che at ako.. gagayon!

che at ako at haning at aina

2006-08-15T23:35:00.000+08:00

august 15, 2006

tuesday

11:35 pm

just before i sit here to check my mailbox, which after 35 hours since i last checked, probably mounted to hundreds a'ready, i saw manong outside sa may simbahan (sa kanto ng street namin ay simbahan) tinda bibingka at puto bumbong daw yun. nag time check tuloy ako bigla at whoala PASKO na pala. akalain mo yun! merry christmas na sa inyo! una nakong bati. magbe BER months nanaman. kabilis nang panahon. hay. im so sad. i take that back. sad lang pala. hay. pasayahin mo nga ko! ^_^

2006-08-07T18:26:00.000+08:00

08.07.06
monday

thankyou today! waheheheh. isandaang taon na naman ang hihintayin ng susunod na salinlahi ko bago mag 08.07.06 uli. ahihihi. masaya man palan.. :)

2006-07-31T17:00:00.000+08:00

K2
KRISTINE on Kamikazee

-im watching you-

the first and only time i saw them perform on stage in flesh is @ the U.P Feb Fair '06. i'm probably 6 years late for a fan of a band that's been around since 2000. yes, iam a fan. but no, it's never too late.

it's strange how someone or something grows in you without really noticing it. i was first inadmittant that i like their kind of music but when i found myself humming every song in track, jumping into the beat, roaming around the worldwide web, getting amused at every post in the official mailing list and on very few other times even daydreaming i'm upfront with the 5 fingers, (ehehehehe) i think it's but logical to realize that indeed, i love more than like the music behind the band.

with a 100 & thousand mega voltz adrenaline rush from the band and the hyped- up kamikazee- infected crowd, the environment for Pinoy Rock Music nowadays has been set to ablaze the quintet's fearless, witty, intriguing, infectious and heartfully & soulfully crafted music along with their stand up comic, exhilarating, intense and even provocative performance. it's amazing how a group of five once ordinary men gets to do what they've always desired so and touch & move a million other people out there through their music. clearly, their passion and message has gotten across and is now filling the air with so much madness. oh yeah;

everyone, kamikazee...

jay. vocalist. sinigang na baboy. walking tattoo catalog. ferdinand. UPFA. the perfect laughing medicine. manong. indecent. living saint. rockstar. god of naughtiness. isaw. the all around concert party entertainer. human comic strip. Cecilian. stripper. Ching- wa. master of spontaneous stage humor. Maharot.

bords. drums. big. allan. UPFA. Drummer of the Year. co- producer. Maharot.

led. rhythm guitar. UPFA. catchy guitar riffs. Maharot.

puto. bass. Jason. UPFA. ace of bass. Maharot.

jomal. second vocals. lead guitar. producer. UPFA. dimples. Maharot.

THIS is the kamikazee that leaves & keeps me high on a different ground. even better than the Florida- based rock band having the same name. even more drunkening that the mix of 1 1/4 oz vodka + 3/4 blue curacao + lime juice, shaked, strained & served kamikazee liquor and is on a league of their own beyond their name's Japanes origin, kamikaze which means suicidal attack.

i'm a distant kamikazee lover. i may sound to be a dormant, remote & a very "walang kwentang" fan but allow me, let this published post be my first non- dormant, non- remote, non- "walang kwentang" own special way of expressing the magnitude of respect and love i have for all the people who's been supporting them from since, for the inspiration, for the influence, and for the music the band is unselfishly contributing to the music industry and to each & everyone's sometimes droning life. and although i have known their gig skeds and i have loved them for as far as i can remember, i have not been, but i'm dying to be, around or anywhere near any of their gigs. i haven't even bought the album, which now turned Platinum, neither have i wore the Maharot shirt or any kamikazee merchandise nor gotten autographs from or pictures with any one of them. WAIT. ONE DAY, I WILL...

because right now, the spectrum can barely put up with the phase of the chase. from Ora d Caf to MTV, from ramps to red carpets, from pro bono to laddering talent fees, from nameless commoners to fame figures, from dreams to reality, without a doubt, kamikazee is hot blazingly conquering airwaves, bars, cities, television, hit charts & even product endorsement OST. at par with world- class talents, this MTV local Artist of the Month for July truly deserves to be given a hardrock solid, heartfelt Pinoy Rock SaLuDo! (witwiw)

they've come a long long way & a long long journey is still ahead. with sheer determination, heat stroking charisma, musical flair and Divine intervention (o di ba!? ) we can only hope & want to see them soar even higher, reach the skies, & be among the luminary stars humbled & learned by their experiences and sacrifices.

to jay and the rest of the gang, more and more blessings! you're damn great!... and that's simply it... beyond description.. beyond words.. rock on!

2006-07-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

2006 STATE OF THE NATION ADDRESS
PRESIDENT GLORIA MACAPAGAL- ARROYO
REPUBLIC OF THE PHILIPPINES

State of the Nation Address of President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo during the 3rd Regular Session of the 13th Congress of the Republic of the PhilippinesBatasan Pambasa Complex, Quezon City.

Thank you.

Thank you, Speaker de Venecia. Congratulations, Senate President Manny Villar; Vice-President Noli de Castro; President Ramos; Chief Justice Panganiban; Members of the diplomatic corps; Senators; Congressmen and Congresswomen; Other officials, ladies and gentlemen.

Sa araw na ito, nakatuon ang isip natin sa ating mga kababayan sa Lebanon. Nasa kuko sila ngayon ng malagim na paglala ng digmaan. Kahapon lamang, sinalubong natin ang unang dalawang-daang Pilipinong lumikas doon. Limang-daan pa ang mauuwi natin sa susunod na apat na araw.

Sa ating mga OFW, tunay kayong mga bagong bayani. Sa inyong paglilingkod sa pamilya, sa ating bayan at sa Diyos, maraming salamat.

Sa ating mga kababayan, a journey of a thousand miles does not begin with a single step. It starts with the first step, with gathering the means to complete it successfully. Those means are now at hand.

To my friends in Congress who, in the face of grave political consequences, championed and passed some of the most severe and critical fiscal reforms to save our economy, maraming salamat. You are the true friends of the Filipino people. For the real challenge has never been to blame but to fix what is wrong in our country and our economy.

Dahil sa inyo, sa wakas may pondo na tayo, hindi lamang para ibayad sa interes, kundi para sa edukasyon, mas mabuting tulay at kalsada, pagbigay kalinga sa kalusugan at higit na trabaho sa ating bansa. Now, we have the money to pay down our debt and to build up our country.

To the civil servants who rose to the challenge of turning a weakening economy to a strong republic, through more vigorous tax collection and more vigilant action against corruption, maraming salamat. We have achieved record revenue collections. We are lining up corrupt officials to face the consequences of their misdeeds. And finally earned the respect of the international community as a serious and viable state for our fiscal discipline and billions of pesos in annual interest savings that are now going into necessary public investments.

To our men and women in the armed services, the huge and deep core of your loyalty has earned the nation's accolade. The few mutineers have been condemned by the people. They and their partisan cohorts and funders are being brought to justice. Sa nakararaming kawal at pulis na nagtaguyod ng watawat at Saligang Batas, maraming salamat.

And at a time when we must each, as individuals and as communities, take greater responsibility, our local government officials man the frontline of change: change for greater accountability, for better service and more responsiveness to their constituents. Sa inyong lahat, mga local government officials, maraming salamat.

Higit sa lahat, salamat sa sambayanang Pilipino, para sa inyong mga sakripisyo, sa inyong tiyaga, for believing, in the face of the greatest hardships, in our ability to surmount the obstacles to the future you deserve; you who have resisted persistent if not pathetic calls for despair instead of faith, for anarchy instead of harmony, salamat, salamat, taus- pusong pasasalamat.
So I stand before you today to deliver a state of the nation that is focused on what the people want; the people want to know the plan to put us on the path to prosperity.

I am not here to talk about politics; I am here to talk about what the people want; details on the state of the nation and what their government is doing to make progress every single day.

Sama-sama nating isusulong ang bansa patungo sa kinabukasang nagniningning.Gaya ng nakikita sa graph na ito, dahil sa ating reporma sa ekonomiya, we now have the funds to address social inequity and economic disparity. Too many ... masyadong marami, ang mamamayang nagugutom. Hindi ako hihinto hanggang magtagumpay ang ating laban sa kahirapan.

We now have the funds to stamp out terrorism and lawless violence.
May pondo na tayo para labanan ang katiwalian.

Our reforms have earned us P1 billion from the U.S. Millennium Challenge Account for more investigators, prosecutors, and new technology to fight corruption. We are matching this with another billion from our fiscal savings.

We now have the funds for constitutional and electoral changes. Sa kasalukuyang sistema, napakabagal ng proseso, at bukas sa labis na pagtutunggali, at sikil ang lalawigan at mamamayan sa paghahari ng Imperial Manila. Panahon nang ibalik ang kapangyarihan sa taumbayan at lalawigan. For surely, there must be a better way to do politics, so that those who lose elections do not make the country pay for their frustrated ambitions. There must be a better way so that those who win the nation's mandate to govern can work without delay and whimsical obstruction. There must be a better way.

Meanwhile, now we can fund the Medium Term Public Investment Program.Sumusulong na ang ating plano na may tatlong yugto. Una, ang makaahon sa mga dekada ng utang at kapos ng pondo. Nagawa na natin ito. Ikalawang yugto, ang pagbabalik sa taumbayan ang mas malaking kita ng pamahalaan: upang makapagpundar ng kalinga sa kalusugan, edukasyon at trabaho na kailangang-kailangan ng mamamayan. Ginagawa na rin natin ito. And finally, Phase Three: to invest in the natural advantages and natural resources of each section of our nation so that when harnessed together, the major economic regions of the nation are larger than the sum of its parts.

We will enhance the competitive advantage of the natural "super regions-"of-the-Philippines: the North Luzon Agribusiness Quadrangle, the Metro Luzon Urban Beltway, Central Philippines, Mindanao and the Cyber Corridor.

In North Luzon, we will prioritize agribusiness investments. The agricultural and fisheries potential of the Cordilleras, Ilocandia, and Cagayan Valley can feed Luzon affordably. And nearness to North Asia holds the rich promise of agricultural exports and tourism.

My father built the Halsema Highway from Baguio to Bontoc, and the Bagabag airport in Nueva Vizcaya to access the Ifugao rice terraces, which by the way, the UNESCO has recently praised for the way we have carried out our heritage preservation policy. We have rehabilitated the Baguio to Mount Data leg of the highway and the rest of Halsema will now follow. We will upgrade the Bagabag airport and build a new one in Lallo, Cagayan, which will connect to Cordillera by upgrading the Tabuk-Tuguegarao Road.

Sa Tabuk, Kalinga, noong Abril, tumanggap ng titulo sa lupa ang ilang matatanda, pagkatapos nilang naghintay ng dalawampung taon mula noong napirmahan ang Mount Data Accord ng gobyerno at ng Cordillera People's Liberation Army. May isang matanda, suot ang lumang uniporme ng CPLA. Pumila, hila-hila ang isang binatilyo. Sabi niya, "This is not for me but for him." Agad inabot ang titulo sa apo. Narito ngayon si Ginoong Ama Balunggay at ang kaniyang apo si Jacob.
And our post-harvest support shall continue, like the cold chain that we set up in 2004 for La Trinidad, Benguet under Mayor Nestor Fongwan. It consisted of a refrigerated storage facility and refrigerated trucks to deliver vegetables to Metro Manila. Nais kong tumaas ang kita ng mga magsasaka, at ang ina ng bawat tahanan ay makabili ng mura at sariwang gulay para sa kaniyang mga anak.
So that the people will know how well their money is spent, Benguet and its towns of Bakun, Bokod and Itogon have rolled out the new electronic government accounting system in their jurisdictions.

If Ifugao was able to cut its poverty in half in the first three years of our administration, from 56 to 28%, congratulations. We hope that through these programs, the other provinces can replicate the success of Ifugao. Hangad nating dumami ang mga taga-Cordillera sa mga propesyon na tinitingalaan ng bayan, gaya ng mga abogadong gaya nina Maurice Domogan at Romeo Brawner. Ibig din nating makapaghanda ang Cordillera sa awtonomiya pagdating ng pederalismo, ayon nawa sa pagbabago ng Saligang Batas.

Sa Dagupan, inilunsad na ng mga kolehiyo gaya ng Northwestern Lyceum University and ladderized system of education. Sa ganitong sistema, magagamit sa unibersidad and mga kursong kinuha sa vocational school at ang karanasan sa trabaho.

We will expand President Ramos¡¦ flagship San Roque Multipurpose Dam with the massive Agno River Project. Another major project is the Banaoang Irrigation. We allocate P200 million a month for small irrigation projects like those in the flood control plan of the Region II Development Council headed by Bishop Ramon Villena. Plus another P200 million a month for farm to market roads.Also in the works is an international airport in Poro, La Union and the improvement of the two airports in Batanes as recommended by Governor Vic Gato. Ilocos Sur will have a seaport in Salomague while the Cagayan Zone Authority will better the one in Port Irene.

To save dollars, windmills in Batanes and Ilocos Norte turn megawinds into megawatts. When Army Commander Romy Tolentino was North Luzon commander, he became a soldier-farmer, planting jatropha as yet another alternative fuel.

The Metro Luzon Urban Beltway spans most of Central Luzon, Metro Manila, Calabarzon, Mindoro and Marinduque. It must be a globally competitive urban, industrial and services center, because it produces more than half of the country's GDP.

To be world-class we invest in five comprehensive strategies for global competitiveness:

1. Make food plentiful and affordable to keep our labor cost globally competitive.
2. Reduce the cost of electricity to make our factories regionally competitive.
3. Modernize infrastructure at least cost to efficiently transport goods and people.
4. Mobilize, upgrade and disseminate knowledge and technologies for productivity.
5. Reduce red tape in all agencies to cut business costs.

The most prohibitive red tape is in our outmoded Constitution. We need Constitutional change to bring our rules of investment into the new millenniumThe new public bidding process has been shortened to 45 days for infrastructure, and 26 days for supplies, as of today. Even before this, Metro Manila firms paying bribes for public contracts declined from 57% in 2003 to 46 today. Congratulations, Metro ManilaMachine readable electronic passports will enhance the credibility of Philippine travel documents, improve the mobility and increase the prospects of Philippine business and labor.

Legitimate mobility is hampered by human trafficking. Through the support of the USAID, we have convicted human traffickers with the Tongco spouses who were sentenced in a Quezon City court last December. These accomplishments removed us from the from the priority anti-trafficking watchlist.

To lower power costs we introduced the Wholesale Electricity Spot Market last month. Let¡¦s give it a chance to work. And we would like big power consumers like electronics, our number one exports, to avail of lower power rates from the National Power Corporation. On coco-biodiesel, we now have enough capacity for the proposed 1% blend just waiting to be passed into law.

The Subic-Clark corridor is on its way to a competitive international logistics center. This will be my legacy to my cabalens, jointly with Lito and Mark Lapid, Rey Aquino, Ana Bondoc, Blue Boy Nepomuceno, my son Mikey and Tarzan Lazatin. We jumpstarted it with giant investments in the Subic Seaport, the Clark Airport, and the Subic-Clark-Tarlac Expressway.

And to bring the beltway to the west we will connect the Subic-Clark-Tarlac Road to Dingalan Port through Nueva Ecija, and the Marikina- Infanta Road to the port of Real.

Upang ibsan ang pagod ng mga empleyadong namamasahe sa trapiko sa Kalakhang Maynila, mangangapital tayo sa mga expressway at tren.We will have a continuous highway from Clark to Metro Manila to Batangas Port. TapoƒVs na iyong expressway mula Clark hanggang Maynila.. Sa ngayon wala nang isang oras ang biyahe mula Clark hanggang Monumento. Ngayon iiwasan natin ang trapiko mula Monumento, dahil idudugtong natin ang North Expressway sa C-5. Tutulong si Sonny Belmonte sa right-of-way. Ang C-5 naman ay konektado na sa South Luzon Expressway. Ang South Luzon Expressway ay pinapalapad naman hanggang Calamba. Sa Agosto, pahahabain ito hanggang Batangas. We will also build the Coastal Road to Bacoor, which has become urban under Jesse Castillo.

Pagdurugtungin natin ang MRT at LRT mula Monumento hanggang North EDSA upang mabuo ang biyahe paikot sa Kamaynilaan, at maibsan ang trapik. We will construct the Northrail to Clark and the Southrail to Lucena and on to Bicol, and upgrade the link between them. We will also extend the LRT to Bacoor. Sa pagbilis ng biyahe patungo at palabaas ng Metro Manila, makakatira ang manggagawa sa mas mura at maaliwalas na lalawigan.

Maayos na ang kapaligiran sa riles ng tren sa South Superhighway. Masaya ang mga pamilyang hinatid namin ni Vice President Noli de Castro sa kanilang bago at permanenteng relokasyon. Teddy Boy Locsin said it hadn't been done before, and couldn't be done at all. Well, Teddy?Ngayon gagawin ito sa Maynila, si Lito Atienza ang bahala.

We thank China for agreeing to fund these housing needs. Huwaran ng ating programang pabahay para sa mahihirap ang mga proyekto ng Iglesia ni Kristo at Gawad Kalinga.

Ngunit kapos sa tubig ang mga taga-West Zone ng Kamaynilaan. Kaya bibigyan natin ng prayoridad hindi lamang ang edukasyon, koryente, enerhiya at kalusugan, kundi tubig din. We are setting up a 300 million liters per day pumping station for Muntinlupa, Las Pinas and Paranaque.

We will build a roll-on-roll-roll-off port system to link Lucena, Quezon to Boac, Marinduque, like the Batangas-Mindoro RORO.

Sa ganitong mga proyekto, palalakasin natin ang ekonomiya ng mga barangay at lalawigan. And we will end the long oppression of barangays by rebel terrorists who kill without qualms, even their own. Sa mga lalawigang sakop ng 7th Division, nakikibaka sa kalaban si Jovito Palparan. Hindi siya aatras hanggang makawala sa gabi ng kilabot ang mga pamayanan at maka-ahon sa bukaƒVng-liwayway ng hustisya at kalayaan.

In the harshest possible terms I condemn political killings. We together stopped judicial executions with the abolition of the death penalty. We urge witnesses to come forward. Together we will stop extrajudicial executions.

Central Philippines has the competitive edge in tourism in its natural wonders and the extraordinary hospitality of its people. The area sweeps across Palawan and Romblon, the Visayas and Bicol, plus the northern Mindanao islands of Camiguin, Siargao and Dapitan. Topbilled by Boracay, Cebu, Bohol and Palawan, it attracts more than half of the foreign tourists to the Philippines. It is also the center of geothermal power in the country, which we continue to develop.The priority here is tourism investments. Coming soon for superstar Boracay are an instrument landing system for the Kalibo airport and a P3 billion private investment in a San Jose, Romblon airport, plus good roads to spillover destinations all over Panay.

In Cebu, Gwen Garcia is constructing a world-class convention center for the ASEAN and East Asian Summits in December.

Helping our infrastructure upgrading, is the fall in bribery for public sector contracts in Metro Cebu, from 62% of companies in 2004 to 47 today. Congratulations to Cardinal Vidal for shepherding his flock and to Metro Cebu Mayors Osmena, Ouano and Fernandez, and Metro Cebu representatives del Mar, Cuenco, Gullas and Soon-Ruiz.

Bohol became a destination distinct from Cebu since it defeated the terrorist insurgency with community initiatives led by the power tandem of Rico Aumentado and General Johnny Gomez, now the NCR Commander. It now merits its own international airport, just as our country deserves a world-class Constitution strongly supported by Governor Aumentado and the league of local authorities.

Tourism in Palawan requires the upgrading of the airports of Puerto Princesa, Busuanga, San Vicente ( hometown of Congressman Alvarez that¡¦s why he¡¦s clapping) and the building of a new one in Balabac; as well as a continuous road backbone from El Nido to Bataraza.

We will lengthen the Dumaguete runway for tourism as well as electronics. Valencia, Oriental Negros could attract semiconductor firms with power rates subsidized by the geothermal field of Palimpinon. Negros will also advance energy independence with ethanol projects in San Carlos City and Tamlang Valley, once the biofuel law is passed. (You have done your part, Migs)We will serve Guimaras by the airport being built in Santa Barbara, Iloilo and by a new RORO port in Sibunag. We will link Sipalay via Silay airport funded by the national government and Kabankalan airport being built by its local government. Thank you.

For Bicol's whalesharks, beaches and, of course, Mount Mayon, we have started acquiring the right of way for an international airport in Daraga, Albay. We will provide the means to the perfect surfs of the Pacific by upgrading the airports of Siargao, Guiuan and Tacloban.

We will widen the road to Dakak in Dapitan, and RORO will connect Siquijor to Santander, Cebu; Camiguin to Jagna, Bohol; Ubay, Bohol to Maasin, Southern Leyte, for diving in Limasawa.

We will bring Masbate and Biliran into the RORO Eastern Nautical Highway from Surigao through Leyte through Naval and Maripipi in Biliran through Esperanza, Aroroy and Burias Island in Masbate and on to Bicol. The much-awaited 10-megawatt generator set arrived in Masbate last Saturday. It is ready to power up the province before the end of the month.

Camiguin, Romblon and Camarines Norte got out of the list of poorest provinces in 2003. With tourism these provinces can become rich.

Also winning the war against poverty and calamity, undaunted by unimaginable catastrophe, the valiant people of Southern Leyte, under the leadership of Rosette Lerias and Oging Mercado (our Rudy Guliani) are rebuilding the lives of Saint Bernard and San Francisco from their tragic mudslides. Yesterday, I asked the Japanese government to help Southern Leyte implement an integrated management approach to deal with their critical ecosystem, like the one the World Bank has approved for the Bicol River Basin.

Mindanao is our priority for agribusiness investments in the south. Mindanao is mostly fertile and largely typhoon-free, exporting coconut products and high value crops, and from its waters come 40% of the country's fish catch. Our investment priorities mirror those for North Luzon, and more because Mindanao has the poorest regions and poorest provinces and because we have to spend on a logistics system linking it to the north.

In 2003 we introduced the RORO from Zamboanga del Norte through Negros, Panay and Mindoro to Batangas. This system has slashed travel time from Mindanao to Luzon from 36 hours to 24 hours, and freight cost by 30 percent, so crucial to food shipments. Now we will develop more routes like the one from Cagayan de Oro through Camiguin, Bohol, Cebu and Masbate to Bicol, the Central Nautical Highway.

Also in 2003, Sulu, Lanao del Sur, and Tawitawi registered double-digit declines in poverty incidence from the year 2000. Congratulations.

Kitang-kita ang pag-ibayo ng mga isla ng Sulu, Basilan at Tawi-Tawi. Nagbukas ang Jollibee sa Basilan. The Balikatan exercises with the United States, combined with the US GEM program and other donor-assisted projects, have no doubt contributed to this.

Sa Sulu, isang araw ng Mayo, umuulan, nagwakas ang isang mahabang pagtutunggali nang pumasok ang mga kawal at sibilyan sa Kampong Bitan-ag sa Panamao na hawak ng mga rebelde. Nagyakapan at nagkamayan ang dalawang panig. Dahil sa matinding pagnanais para sa kapayapaan ni Marine General Ben Dolorfino, naganap ang pagkakasundo. Gayon natapos ang isang madugong kabanata. Congratulations, General Ben Dolorfino.

Susi sa anumang pag-ibayo ang malakas na suporta at ma-abilidad na liderato ng pamahalaang local. Halimbawa, iyong "from arms to farms¡¨ ni Governor Ben Loong ng Sulu, with his caravan of tractors literally invading former rebel camps in his province. Congratulations.

Mahigit isang linggong nakaraan, dumating sa "Eleven Islands" ang daan-daang rebeldeng at kanilang pamilya, sa pamumuno ng dating MNLF Commander na si Aribari Samson. Dito sa mga pulo na kilalang "no man's island," dati nagtatago ang mga rebelde at criminal. Ngayon sa tulong ng isang programa ng United Nations, nagtayo tayo ng dalawang daang tahanan at panibagong buhay para sa pangkat ni Samson. Thank you for giving peace a chance. Congratulations, Commander Samson.

I take this occasion to express our gratitude to the donor community from the US, the Organization of the Islamic Conference and the European Union, Australia, Japan, our ASEAN neighbors, the multilaterals and the rest of the world. Thank you for helping us in our peace process.

If we can harness the forces of good in our nation, the positive force at work here at home and those from abroad such as the US, Malaysia, the OIC and others, we shall prevail in Mindanao with a peace agreement that brings freedom and hope to all Filipinos. With this peace, we would reap dividends in resources invested in agribusiness, not aggression, to build up, not tear down, the Philippine south.

Among the possible peace dividends would be pro-poor road projects like the Siocon-Sirawai-Sibuco-Baligyan Road in Zamboanga del Norte; the Lebak to Maguindanao which Sim Datumanong started when he was Secretary of Public Works; the Dinagat Island road network in Surigao Del Norte; the Hawilian-Salug-Sinakungan barangay road in Agusan del Sur; the Pangil Bay Bridge; and the Surigao-Davao Road, which we want to be as beautiful as the Bukidnon Highway completed during the administration of Joe Zubiri and the term of Migs Zubiri.

Mindanao's number one export, coconuts, has been growing continuously for the last three years, at the rate of 10% a year. The coconut farmers deserve a portion of the peace dividend. I invite Congress and the Bishops-Ulama-Priests-Pastors-Farmer-Lumad Conference led by Archbishop Fernando Capalla to help me ensure their rightful share.

On top of peace and investment, progress also demands good governance. I congratulate Donkoy Emano for the drop in reports of corruption for public contracts in Cagayan de Oro from 65% of firms last year to 38 this year. Also Rudy Duterte and the other leaders of Metro Davao led by Majority Leader Boy Nograles for a similar drop, 57% last year to 49 now. Things are coming together for Mindanao, a prelude to their readiness for eventual federalism.The Cyber Corridor will boost telecommunications, technology and education. The corridor runs the length of all the super regions, from Baguio to Cebu to Davao. The cities of Davao, Tagum and Samal Island Garden all operate electronic government accounting systems. There are many wings now to the corridor because enterprising local executives like L-Ray Villafuerte and Jerry Trenas have aggressively attracted call centers to their jurisdictions (Congratulations, Jerry) In this corridor, the English and information and communication technology skills of the youth give them a competitive edge in call centers and other business process outsourcing.

In 2001, in this hall, we hailed ICT as a key growth sector. So we built up telecommunications infrastructure and opened the market for Internet phone calls. Today international calls cost 6 cents a minute, down from 40 cents. From 2,000 BPO workers in 2001, we now have 200,000.

I had coffee with some call center agents last Labor Day. Lyn, a new college graduate, told me, "Now I don't have to leave the country in order for me to help my family. Salamat po." I was so touched, Lyn by your comments. With these structural reforms, we not only found jobs, but kept families intact. Thank God, I thought, or someone might also try to impeach me for violating Article 15 of the Constitution on the solidarity of the family as the foundation of the nation.

As Louie Villafuerte argues, to step into the future, a country that wants to be a player in the global economy needs bold and well-funded research and development initiatives of its own. To this end, we will continuously increase the budget for science and technology, and education. For in today's global economy, knowledge is the greatest creator of wealth.

In summary, I named only a few priorities to illustrate that on many fronts, your government is working, and working well. Our economy is now growing over the longest period in the last quarter-century: 22 consecutive quarters of growth. Umakyat ng mahigit tatlumpung porsyento ang kita ng pinakamahihirap na pamilya sa unang tatlong taon ng ating panunungkulan, at bumaba ang dami ng maralita sa 25% ng mga pamilya, mula 28%, katumbas ng dalawang milyong katao na lumaya sa kahirapan. According to Thornton and Punongbayan, 70% of medium-sized business owners are optimistic, the fifth most optimistic among 30 countries, just behind India, Ireland, South Africa and China.

Bickering in politics may delay, but not derail the initiatives that need to be taken on our pro-poor, pro-growth, and pro-peace agenda. Regardless of the fate of the national budget, we must automate our election process. Local governments must get their rightful share of revenues. I ask Congress to pass a supplemental budget to effect this.

We are a great people. We have honest students and honest cops. We have scaled the heights of Mount Everest, dominated the Southeast Asian games, we have won international beauty titles, and of course punched our way to triumph in the boxing world. Our people compete and win every day in every imaginable job throughout the world. Individually, we've taken the world on and won; together, we must take on the challenge of creating a new, peaceful, humane and competitive nation and prevail.

For those who want to pick up old fights, we're game but what a waste of time. Why not join hands instead? Join hands in the biggest challenge of all, where we all win or we all lose: the battle for the survival and progress of our one and only country.

After three years, eleven months, and six days, I shall relinquish the Presidency, with much if not all that I have outlined completed. I do not want it said then that, in the end, I defeated my enemies. I would rather have it said that all of us, you and I, friends and foes today, achieved together a country progressive, prosperous and united.

Thank you. Mabuhay!

2006-07-16T21:37:00.000+08:00

it's a quite but good weekend for me. rain had seized and sun starts coming out. i had a dose of powerful smashes from world- caliber badminton top notches from the recently concluded MVP Cup Asia vs. Europe staged in the full house Araneta Coliseum from July 14 to 16, 2006. Team Europe bagged $60,000 to avenge their defeat during the 1st MVP Cup last year. it's been quite a treat for Filipino badminton afficionados. hooorrrayyy! World Cup fans also celebrated this week as Italy won over rival France in this year's FIFA World Cup in Germany. with a downpour of at least a million people around the globe who anticipated the event, it sure was an event that gave football lovers something to smile about. moving on to the local arena, the UAAP also kicked off for its Season 69 this year. and although controversies surrounded before the season opener, i still would say that the season is doing just as fun. looking forward to a clean, good & thrilling season. in connection, James Yap who is a product of UAAP, UE Red Warriors to be specific lead this year's PBA MVP Award. the sophomore shooting guard from Purefoods now achieved his dream to top the country's premier professional league. he hopes to win the championship trophy for his team the now-on going Gran Matador Brandy PBA Philippine Cup. just as exciting as watching sports action take me on a different vibes, is watching movies take me to another dimension. now, i'm in the position to give a rate, to this Jerry Bruckheimer film, Pirates of the Carribean, of 7.5 or probably even 8. not that bad but also wasn't that great. Just My Luck although not as good as The Pirates is a good enough for weekend treat. at least they're not as bad as American Dreamz movie. no further comments. Buti nalang Lovewrecked was there to strike a balance between not-so-g00d and not-s0-bad chuvanes. i don't like Amanda Bynes much pero may hustisya naman ang pagganap nya dito, kaya pwede na. ;)

congratulations to kamikazee for making at least 30, 000 record sales for their Maharot album. yuf Platinum na ang Maharot! ;)

oh di ba, my week isn't as bad as others'... hehehe.

2006-07-14T17:12:00.000+08:00

10 random facts about me

1. i'm a princess. was not born a princess but was raised to be one.. make a difference. it's more than the royalty and the sophistication. it's a lot more than that. yAh know!

2. my 4th boyfriend is gay. joke. i only had *** (less than 4) boyfriends. that's a fact. and my counter had stopped since then waiting for the prince to sweep the princess off her feet. ;) ilusyonada! bwahahaha.

3. i sleep with my socks on. i always do. walang pakialaman. e bakit ba feeling hubad ako pag alang medyas e. hihihi.

4. i was on board GULF AIR GF 295 sEat 27B Manila to Abu Dhabi June 23, 2005 flight for my 1st leisure trip abroad.

5. my first celphone was N3210. still good but i'm now using a SE phone. gotten used to it.

6. i use Aquafresh toothbrush. Sensodyne toothpaste. Pyodontyl mouthwash & Dr. Lee- Lim Guan is my lady dentist.

7. i won the Ms. Friendship Award when i joined the Miss Intramurals pageant way back sophomore high 2001. oh yeah. wink. wink.

8. i have costocondritis. it's a medical condition wherefrom no one dies but carries it for the rest of one's life.

9. i drink at least 12 full glasses of water every day. that's AT LEAST.

10. i was a C.A.T officer when i was in junior & senior high. beauty queen turned C.A.T officer ang lola moi. hehi. yup, i went through all that.. kumaing binibilangan, mabilad sa araw maghapon, rifles, name plates at mga opisyal na kala mo e mababangis na tigre at leon. 1 Lt. akong grumadweyt dun. ayus sa olrayt baga. hehehe.

2006-07-10T17:15:00.000+08:00

sick and beautifuL.

nakakamisz magsulat. i've been out for quite a time now. maybe we need a little catchin' up. aside from being sick and of course beautiful (walang kontrahan) i've had a number of not-so-good luck during the time i was out. you don't want me ranting about that here, do you? so let's not anymore talk about them. i'm missing a lot lately. figuratively and well literally missing quite a few people. i miss sheila and ezra and lhei and rein. their company makes me feel warm. we may not always see one another but i know they know that i'm just here. i miss my ibm family. i've talked to daise last week and she sounds great. i miss my css bosses who have always been makulit and fun to be with. they never fail to make me smile. i miss sj peepz. i miss the overnights and alchohol rush. i miss my mom. i miss going out. i miss drinkin' hard. well, i can't miss on watching movies or dvds. i've watched a handful of them during my hibernation. neither do i miss manny pacquiao who's been all over since the day he reigned king in the boxing ring. his goodness is worth around 200- 300M, net. imagine? lucky he. blessed he. i miss my apex family. i miss being tired and ngarag and all that. i miss coco jam. i miss eating hamburgers (now that i no longer eat meat, yeah i miss hamburgers and tocino and waaaahhhh i'm starting to get meat-hungry) i miss superman. i miss arjay. his calmness surrounds me sweetly. i don't miss the a**hole surpirisingly but i miss the way he'd look at me. i miss j.u. (oii, initials.) i miss the way he makes me smile. i miss being loved.. being taken cared of.. being happy in that kind of way. it's been long a time now since i had someone take care of me. yes, i guess i miss that now.
or it's just you that i miss?
whew, quite a few to miss huh. *smiLes. anyways, i am back and i hope to keep in touch more with more of you here. don't forget to tag or post comments. it'll be very much welcome. i'd appreciate if you'd log your name so i won't go around guessing. thanks. love&peace.

2006-07-07T16:19:00.000+08:00

hello world! hello philippines! i am so back!

new job (almost.) new friends. new me. no alcohol. no night outs. gosh, what have i been doing all these time? i can't believe that i haven't gone out partying long nights with friends neither have i drunk in months. there was even a week where i did not go out of the house, just literally within the 4 walls of a two-storey old wooden quarter-street house. i must be out of my mind. well. i am back from hibernation and i'm alcohol-thirst, party-deprived, and still gorgeous! haha. nothing you or i can do about that. nyahaha.

thanks to more than a month of hibernation. crazy me is back! i had my eyes checked and grade raised to 75 on both eye, my teeth cleaned, my hair trimmed, my nails done & my life fixed(?). i had to and i did unload some and regain a few. i can stumble a number of times and i can very well get back on my toes maybe even more than the number of times i stumble. ;)

*LIFE is a continuous challenge, a constant struggle and a never-ending journey.

take a rest but never give up!

2006-06-05T19:57:00.000+08:00

the longest journey is the journey inwards. i had everything a girl could ever ask for! it took me 23 years before finally realizing that.. 23 wonderful years. i grew up with no father. HE took him away in an ambush when i was 2. i was a consistent honor student form kindergarten all the way to college. i even graduated cum laude from ateneo. achiever daw ako. i feel the love and respect my family has in me. hindi kami mayaman but i never slept in a mainit, matigas at maingay na kwarto. i was a princess. i get to buy the things that i want. i even get to decide on my own. i was raised well. i was loved well. life isn't perfect but i was fine.. i was more than fine.

sometimes, well most of the times lately, i wonder why or how or what for do i have to come to this.. maybe it's inevitable. maybe it's not. maybe i've just met a few too many wrong people or went through too many detours. maybe i just have to unlearn some things, get back on track, and be more fiddled with to this world and mine's insanities. maybe i'm just being dramatic about all these. whatever it may be.. i feel it is time for me to take some time off..

i'm a 1 gig system corrupted by time & circumstance necessitating serious debugging. i'm a restless heart finding its way back home. i'm a hot air balloon flying over with no direction. a time bomb waiting to explode. a cocoon willingly anticipating to become something else. a soul lost so deep i wanna find my self again. . *waaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

i'm just a girl.

and how far away can home be?

i don't know.

*happy 06.06.06. i'm happy to have met all of you in this lifetime. see you next century for another 06.06.06. ;) miss me!

2006-06-01T13:00:00.000+08:00

DO YOU SEE NOW?

sundays and a friday

2006-05-30T08:30:00.000+08:00

level of intensity's high. very spontaneous. the action moves swiftly and skillfully. not boring. yet somewhere somehow the story got lost in the sea of special effects.

iLove you Tom but i just wasn't happy after seeing this. please don't make me rate this one.

Lhei's despedida. i'm tin. and im proud to be a JVPian friend! only the bravest can do what lhei chooses to do. i'm gonna miss you.. i already do!

all splashes. no depth. aside from the very nice new year's eve cruise of this god of sea ship and the goodlooking cast, i think there's nothing else..

Mother's dAy. iloveyou nay you're the best! miss you..

if you've read Dan Brown's masterpiece, it appears to be more cinematic than the on-screen version. i'm giving it a 4 for effort, 5 being the highest.

big sister hauz. im not really going there. then again i did. good for me. the hauzmates where there + maecel + lalen + me + aiai + aiai's bf. yes, finally after 3 years pinakilala na kami sa kanyang papa. well, it went well. tbz- churi, di ko talaga lam na makakapunta ko. sayang ng pizza at ice cream. hihi.

it was made to be as dramatic as a last stand should be. being an x-men fan myself i might want to find some reason to hope that this isn't the last last stand after all. for the drama and the intensity, i give you 4.25.

emergency call. last night i missed a friend's despedida. im gonna miss you lhei. sorry i wasn't there. i had to attend to another friend who just lost an important person in her life. and being among the first person she called upon, i feel the urgency to be by her side during that moment. so i did..

that's my friday & sunday's of may.. a date with my movies and important people to meet. you should be lucky if you're with me on these days. if not, please call my secretary and have your date scheduled.

dial now 006324482556 and get lucky

2006-05-25T18:55:00.000+08:00

you know what's worse than learning the truth?

uncovering it.

.

2006-05-23T19:22:00.000+08:00

CTRL + ALT + DELETE

waaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!

2006-05-20T18:03:00.000+08:00

the summit

PINOY ON TOP... GALING.GALING!

CONGRATULATIONS!

http://www.philippine-everest.com

fLash repOrt

2006-05-15T19:04:00.000+08:00

ganap na ika- apat ng hapon ngayong araw ng isang di kilalang lalaki ang humabol sumabay sa escalator sa isang kagandahan na kagagaling lang sa dermatology clinic. hi! ang sabi ng in fairness gwapong lalaking ito sa nasabing babae. at dahil nga maga pa sa prick ang mukha ng nasabing kagandahan, lingon at ngiti lang ang iginanti nya sa hi! na iyon ng lalaki. ngunit ng akmang iaabot na ng lalaki ang kamay nya sabay sabing ms. pwede bang makipagkilala? ay sya namang hakbang pababa ng kagandahan one stair down sa nsabing esca sa may main entrance ng mall na bayan at sabing im sorry..
marYosep. its not the first time something like that happened to me. and hopefuLLy it never happens again. its both creepy and flattering you know. asSusUs!!

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2006-05-06T18:58:00.000+08:00

it taKes oNe big worthy f*cking bLuff to leaRn the tRuth. UNGAS KA! hinDi ka Lang Hayop iSa kang DEMONYO! maganda lang ako pero hindi ako kriminaL.. takOt pero hindi aKo kasing DUWAG mO!

very disappointing

2006-05-05T17:37:00.000+08:00

TODAY...

mOmy: congratuLations! daddY ka na!

huwaaatt?! :dady yo

mOmy: anOng gagawin mO ngyn?

wOw. Nkaka excite but stil nkakatakOt!

Wat tO do wat tO do hehe :dady yo

mOmy: anO?anO?dady yO?

hehe ewan..u :dady yo

mOmy: hehe ewan..u >>??

sOry. I ges i ruined ur lyf.i do. Pawis na pawis akO oh?

Hehe ano ngang # jan s nyO? :dady yo

mOmy: wag kang tatawag d2 s bhay.

d2 cla lahat sbaba.i cnt tOk ryt n0w.

k. Wat u dO b?nag preg test ka?kwntO mO nman.

waa! Bat gnito! Hehe :dady yo

mOmy: ay0kong mgkkwent0.

it d0esnt help d situati0n.waahhh!!

il see u tmrw. Tel me wat tym ka fri. Ayt? :dady yo

mOmy: hpOn cgur0.

para hndi n mxado mainit lumabas.

k. Dlahn mO un preg kit mO. Tingnan kO.

Txt txt na lng. See yOu.u :dady yo

mOmy: i d0n't kn0w what t0 do!

twagan nga kta ngyn jan. :dady yo

mOmy: pls.tel me wala ka pa ring pnagsasabhin!

mgusap muna tay0 kung pan0. :(

k tmrw n lng.kta tau,maaga sna.

mga aftr lunch.ng mayOs na tO agad. :dady yo

mOmy: may pas0k kpa.wag kang umabsent.

walang mgbabag0.papasok ka p rn.

pgktp0s ng klase m0.dun ty0 mgusap net0.

wla kOng clas.bsta il see u tmrw aftr lunch. :dady yo

s araneta sqr na lng.pra mlapit sayo.mga 130pm. :dady yo

mOmy: g0odmorning dady yo.

kamusta? ak0.nl0ka na.

hehe baby pkO.. :dady yo

mOmy: nkakatawa pa ang baby ah.

xemps. Nway, wg na pla tau mgkta mya.

my ggwin p pla ko s skul. Ge! :dady yo

mOmy: e an0ng gagwn ntn det0?

wala. :dady yo

mOmy: wala. >>?? ?

mOmy: kung my ggwin ka p pla ngyn s skul ok lang.

kht wg n ty0 kta.ka nlang pg la n u gWa.

nwei,gnun p rn nman dk0 n mbblik to.

di,mgkta na tau ngyn.gat maga,kelngan mayOs yan.

mga 330,s araneta sqr s mentO.mya lng pnta nkO dun. :dady yo

grbe ang tagal mO. :dady yo

Asan knb? :dady yo

hndi kna sgurO ddating,alis nkO. Nway,i want to see ur kit,dn u agen test wd me.watevr hapens,hndi dpat m2loy yan.i alrdy cOntctd my frnd,shel provyd me d tblet ul take. :dady yo

im sOry.wer sOry kng skali.bsta,hndi dpat m2loy yan.wla kOng kwnta kng wla,prO ms sira lyf nting dlwa pg 2loy man yan.ingat ka plage.See u dis days. :dady yo

..i made the biggest worthy f*cking bLuff. BUT DAMN i nEver imagined that you'd actually suggest such a tablet- taking solution, whatever you call it.

whatever happens, im not ever gonna be sOrry for that one big worthy f*cking BLuff. because you know what

SCREW YOU IC!!!

2006-05-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

fota ang init!

back in the jungLe

2006-05-03T18:55:00.000+08:00

dumating ako kaninang 4:15 ng umaga. malungkot. missing. kakaiba. or maybe i've just spent a little longer with my family than i should. hay. kakakmisz ang.. kropek sa mga gabing batong bato kaming magpipinsan at walang ibang magawa kundi magtawanan over a bowlfull of kropek.

ang tapos nang pagbabalat ng sunog-araw (sun burn tagalog? ha ha!) kong iniligo sa nag uumapoy na haring araw. ang araw araw na pagharap ko sa salamin habang hubog ko ay tinitingnan. ang mga mapa rito dulot ng pagkasunog ng aking balat. fanget. buti nalang sexy ako. haha ha ha! walang pakialaman. gumawa ka ng sarili mong blog. lolz. ang beach na may kagagawan ng pagka- nognog ko.salamat sayo ha. ang cable ng probinsya na kung weekend e nagbabakasyon din. maryosep. kung kelan weekend tska walang cable. p*ksh*T! ang matulog nang maaga tipong 7 ng gabi e inaantok nako habang hinihintay nalang matapos ang PBB Teen Edition (oh yeah! hihi) ang tv namin. ang remote na kapag hawak ko na makes me feel like i own the world. ang vocalist ng kamikazee who reminds me of someone. ang kamikazee na kumakanta ng paborit kong song sa MYX Daily Top Ten na kumukompleto ng araw ko. fyi: walang araw ang lumipas the whole time nasa probinsya ako na hindi ko to napakinggan. at akalain mong napapasabay ako sa pagkanta ha. maryosep. ang sariwang hanging araw araw e linalanghap ko dun. ang makukulit but fun-to-be-with kong mga pinsan. si mama. si che. ang isang summer sandali na hinding hindi ko pwedeng kalimutan. lahat sila. lahat lahat. now, im back in the city. in the jungle again. goodLuck!

xa makaalis na at lalagnatin ako sa sobrang init. akalain mong 41d.C mamatay pako sa deliryo. neeet. up yan.

minority report

2006-05-02T17:43:00.000+08:00

minority report

her name is... you know her name im sure. she's 23. young. intense. free and easy. emulous. forgiving. distraught. she could have saved a space for a better- containing entry. she could have not started facing the computer and move her fingers to write something that im sure by now will not put people in jolt anymore. she could have but she wouldn't! she's sick and tired of people who's made it a habit to lie about just anything to just anybody. chronic liars whose asses are full of sh*T.. so full they need a big time vacuous dealing with!

__________________________________________________

they used to always ask her "why?" she would always say "masaya ako!masaya ako e!" they'd doubt if she really was.. they'd always remind her how much they cared. they, who always seemed to know her more than she does, herself. her, who always do things her way..

this time she found herself drawn to his easy ways and had gradually come to fall for him.

I met you on a springtime day,
You were minding your life
and I was minding mine too.
Lady, when you looked my way,
I had a strange sensation and Darling,
that's when I knew...
That it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, I wake up in the night,
And I reach beside me hoping you would be there.
But instead I find someone,
Who believed in me when I said I'd always care...
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
So I'll live my life in a dream world,
For the rest of my days.
Just you and me walking hand in hand,
In a wishful memory...
Oh, I guess it's all that it will ever be...
I wish I had a time machine,
I could,
Make myself go back until the day I was born.
Then I would live my life again,
And rearrange it so that I'd be yours from now on.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Oh, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.
Yes, it's sad to belong to someone else,
When the right one comes along.

she used to cry behind his back every single time he starts singing this.. so you wonder how he ever finished a song..

he gave her chocolate balls one fine midnight when he left elbi to come see her in metropolis.

he would always remind her of how happy he was.. just having her.. of how much he wanted the weekends to be soon over, as if his weekdays were just weekends.. weekends with her. days he would not want to end. days they'd most of the time spend in concealment away from sanity. they'd find ways to witness the beauty of sunrise.sunset. it gives them the world they want to own for a time then. in a place where sand, sun and water makes being with him a perfect mOment, in their sweet little haven, holding one another, enfloding each one in embrace they will wait for the sun to show up or at other times to rest. he held her hand like he would never let go. he'd kiss her tenderly and caress her like he does no other. perfect days. perfect nights. of a million different ways of expressing affection. of making each one weak for another million unknown reasons.

she misses him. she misses the one who once strolled with her in glorietta and told her "yoko dito. masyadong sosyal. simpleng tao lang naman ako e. simple lang ang gusto.." she misses the times when he'd talk about just anything.. that somewhere in that uncertainty they'd find each other again. she misses it when they both can pretend that nothing else in this world matter.. that no Girl would ever find out, no friends would ever witness, no other world to keep them from that madness, no time to ever end it.. she misses the laughs, the cuddles, the warmth, the smell, the goodmornings, the goodnights, the boy.. she misses the way he looks at her.. god, that look!
she misses everything she has gotten used to all these time.. the lies. the cover ups. the thought deep somewhere within that he could not have made the stand for her. that they couldn't have had those moments together any other way. to be numb. to be in pain. to be dreaming of something that would cast her fears away. to pretend that things did not matter when all she could ever think of was that.. to at least realize that it must have took him that kapal ng mukha to cross that one line he was forbidden to cross.. to linger for another day waiting for prOmises to be kept.. to get lost in a pile of bRoken ones which mounts day by day..

yeah, she misses him...

when she last looked at him, his eyes don't tell her the same. he has gone from bad to worse. and she cannot stand knowing it. even thinking about it. "hindi nyo ko kilala ngayon oy." spoken before a crowd he's been with through everything for ten years.. tama ka, hindi ka na nila kilala ngayon. you are nowhere being the one, neither are you worthy of your friends or even her.. of everything she can give. she used to think she could be the reason... she used to, until she stopped running those thoughts in her head..

i guess you were speciAL but you weren't worthy!!!

you can round the alphabet from a- z and go about a second time or another after that but one thing i can assure you.. one thing i can tell.. you can meet as many young, gorgeous, smart letters as you want but you can never, and i mean never meet another K who will love you the way that she did!

so you think she misses him?
or she's doing herself a favor...
to take hold of herself once more.. to regain precious moments.. to spend one more day with him. just one more day. one more careless moment with him.. one more time and she's leaving everything behind.

maybe. just maybe...

__________________________________________________

so you know what. do your self a favor.. mukhang masyado ka nang nalalagi sa ilalim at nag eenjoy ka na sa kaharian dyan, masyado na tuloy kayong nagiging cLose ni Fer na lahat ng hobby nya e gusto mo nang gayahin. hindi ka na bata para matakot sa dilim.. sayang ng balls di ginagamit ng tama. labas.labas. galaw.galaw. gising.gising. dahil baka pag dumating ang araw na gusto mo nang itama ang mga maLi, huli na ang lahat. lahat.lahat.

untiL then.. stay away!

-for your entertainment-

2006-05-01T18:26:00.000+08:00

mayo uno.
agua de mayo.
i say.
beauties on the loose..

ezra angelica

2006-04-27T15:56:00.000+08:00

zra.

ive always loved this girl. always consoling. always a listening ear.. a shoulder to cry on. she always says the right things just when i always think im the one who's right. ewan ko ba. sa lahat ng mga bruha. loka loka. authistic. sya na yta ang pinakalab ko. wala. none of what i will say in this blog will make me ever express how much i mean for this friend.

stay happy. or is it be happy. keep rockin. stay sexy.

and let the dogs drool over the goddesses on earth.. us!

waaaa ha ha! happy birthday my dear. labyu.

7-18-1-3-5

2006-04-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

17-18-1-3-5

whenever i hear her name, wala akong mapagsidlan ng hindi ko maipaliwanag na mixed emotions. awa. bilib. takot. panghihinayang. hindi ko mawari ng lubusan. hindi kami close. hindi rin kami friends. isang beses ko lang sya nakita. sa bundok kung saan nag-aaral sila ng boyfriend nya noon. napunta ako dun kasama si ros. isang makaengganyong imbitasyon ng kasiyahan ang nagdala samin sa liblib na yon. hindi ko nga alam kung bakit napapayag akong sumama. hindi ko rin alam kung para san ang imbitasyon. hindi naman yung nag imbita ang gagradweyt. sya, na walang alam ang gagradweyt. hi helo lang sa isis. jam with hs friends kasama sya. hindi pa nga ko kumain ng tokwa't baboy (ata yun) na inorder nya.

pangkaraniwang pangalan. extraordinary girl. yun lang ang alam ko sa kanya.

ahhh wait, bakit nga ba sya ang punong paksa dito ngayon. i txted her last black saturday. kaswal lang. she was nice enough to send a reply. i forgot about her until today. or did i not forget about her at all?

hindi ko talaga alam kung ano ba. all i know is that i have something im not even sure she cared knowing about. in time, she will.

siguro nga gusto lang kitang maalala. para minsan pa tingnan ko ang sarili ko.

you're a smart girl!

don't settle for anything less than what you deserve.

do you not see?

i may not be in the position..

neither do you.

isang tanong lang.

i dont have to convince whoever.

you dont even have to answer.

just one question..

do you not see?

summehhh!

2006-04-19T14:59:00.000+08:00

a cup !n hand
u kn0w 8s
worth
your whiLE..

a cup !n hand
lets s!t
& stay
for a whILe..

lets s!p,
lets taLk
1 mOment..
1 nescafe..

Lenten '06

2006-04-16T19:47:00.000+08:00

was not able to go to puerto galera. some asshoLe lied. well its not the first time. weniwei, tutong pa rin ako. nag beach pa rin lola mo. tan kung tan. hala turutong baga. hehe. friends and relatives went home to bicol for the holy week. it was an almost boring hometown spending season. almost. *smiles. just gLad it was not.
tuesday night, went out with boys: ros, harold, baloy, erg, ic @ beer pLaza. saya. inuman sa gitna ng simbahan at kapitolyo.. sankapa!? :) isang masayang gabi ng celebration nanaman. yeah boy!
thursday night, friendships went out again. jograd bar with donel, ros, ic, billy, lalen, baloy, jojo, etc. ralasing baga.. shhh. ;)
black saturday wave party @ the beach. dont ask. its obviously a "holy week" of alcohol. umulan ng alak at walang humpay na kasiyahan.
on dates i cannot remember, walang kapagurang languyan with the family almost every day. got to spend time with cousins, uncles, and aunts.
and with friends on black saturday. it was fun. t'was a lotta fun! too bad my cam is down. charger left in manila.
hay. what a way to celebrate Lenten '06. over now. back to reality. happy easter btw. (the family had the easter egg hunt saturday)

im back!

2006-04-07T18:01:00.000+08:00

im back! dame na ng nangyari.. went to manila for franc's christening. my uncle arrived already. uncle nano's wedding last sunday. haning, nikki, jake, xyla's graduation. went back to bicol. han went to vegas for a business trip. watched IceAge2, AeonFlux, Final Destination3, Fearless. read The Notebook and The Valkyries. Auntie Ely with the family went to Corregidor. i visited my dentist. Tita's came home from Italy. beach. sand. and liars. friends coming home. people going.. people coming..
and here i am.. unmoved. unmoved? or not wanting to move?
when im in the moOd to be moved to post another entry about anything that can move me.. magsusulat ako.. for nOw.. let me enjoy this mOment to be with you.. for another one last time..

paalam tita star. the whole family will miss you. we all are now. thankyou for a lifetime of joy with you. may you find peace now whereever you are. we all love you! paalam.
*tita star died of cardiac arrest. it was not the first time she was brought to the hospital when deadly heart attacks. but its time this time. and so our sad goodbye's to our beloved star. paalam!

btw, the pics above are taken succedingly. im lazy telling the story about what happened. anyway, the pictures will speak for itself. good thing im alive. that's a good sign. no matter what im going through right nOw i still feel grateful to be feeling alive.. to be feeling all these madness inside. outside. around. everywhere. yeah. thankgod im alive! still so much to do..

chiLL.

2006-03-31T11:30:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhh!!!!... mau aQ net kya d aQ mkasend message..o mkatag mn lang.. kya post Q nlng msg Q saimo>>sa hello kya ni..dai nblock kang IT mi.....anyHU, may swimmin tau sa apr30-may1..sa zambales... exclusive for us..well send u d dtails when u wnat to see it.. clear ur sched, ayt?... tau tau lng...twins, rein, etz, some ssg pips, che, apol, ska ung family ng pinsan ni twins ...kc cla nkakaalam sa zambalez.. it'll be fun!!! sasama ka ok?!!! HOLLABACK!!! kissez! wabu!

2006-03-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

be goin' home in bicol and be stayin there for a week. it's gonna be a long fun hot hot week for me with relatives who i miss dearly. nikki and haning will be graduating from high school. goodluck sa bagong mundong gagalawan. xyla, 1st honor yan, *proud ate* will also be marching down the red carpet (?) to receive her medals. mana sa ate. smiles. as excited as going home, am looking forward to going back here in manila after that fun-filled week. my uncle tatum will be arriving 1st day of april. my babytot cousin franc will be Christian finally. and on that weekend, am going to Gale with a friend and his friends. *keeping my fingers crossed* we were in Cafe Adriatico in baywalk when that friend of mine invited to come on that island adventure. why not! ;) yipee. summer's here.. and the heat is on.

see through me

2006-03-20T20:05:00.000+08:00

03.20.06

monday

it feels so bad. it feels so heavy. i don't even know why. am not even sure if it is right to feel this way. then again why do i get the feeling that i have to explain myself when i don't have to. i don't think i owe anyone that. this open online journal can be accessed by those who know how to. to have the opportunity to see through me can be a privilige or otherwise depending on how well you know me or want to know me. violent reaction, criticism, comments solicited or not are welcome on this page. but none, none of them will ever make me say that how i felt at a particular time is wrong or is at the least not right. sure, i make mistakes but just like entries on this blog, emotions are spontaneous. when you feel it, that's it. and i don't see anything wrong with being happy, exalted, worried, sad, angry or even irritated.. for these emotions are but normal to us, people. these, like all other things come and go. but just because they come and then go, doesn't mean it isn't real. they are! it does not mean either that when they come, they are there to stay. so why's and but's confronting these come and go stuff cannot or does make any part of seeing through me right or wrong.

to those who do not know me. do not know me well enough. i don't think there will be a 'right' neither a 'wrong' word for you to change the way you see me as a person.

to those who know me. know me well enough. i leave it up to you!

thank you would be a lavish showing of my gratitude.

sorry would be an understatement feeling for you.

no words. no words. will ever be right or wrong. it will all depend on you.

now, that just made me explain myself. if by this, iam still not understood. that's none of my issues anymore. again. that will depend on how well you know me!!!

on happiness...

2006-03-19T14:51:00.000+08:00

on happiness...

its aLL we ever need, righT?!
to bE happy?
in the eNd, its the onLy thing we wAnt to ever haVe
haPpiness

it jusT sUcks when your hAppiness depeNds on sOmeone eLse
wHen its out oF your conTroL
when it couLd disappear in a sNap
i heard soMewhere that one's haPpiness shouLdn't depend on otheR people
fOr how cAn we be geNuineLy happy with someone eLse

if wE can't be happy on our own
that's buLLshit to me, right nOw
being aLone sucKs
especially when you know how iT is to be inLove
or maybe i'Ve just had a bad day
i was thinking how one person can tAke hoLd oF you without trying
without evEr knowing it
how can we Let that happen?

how can we leT things like these catch us off guard?

the heart is a vEry fragiLe thing
we can't just Let anyone have it.
we shouLdn't
coz if we're not carefuL,

it'LL break into thousands of pieces
and i beLieve,

that if that happens,

and we decide to put it aLL back,

there wiLL aLways be a few too many pieces missing
we might nOt know it,
might not aDmit it
but broken hearts,

even if mended wiLL aLways have scars
marks that wiLL remind us how much it hurts to be broken
to have someOne break you inTo pieces
and you know whaT's worse
no matter how hard we try to make things better, it wOnt
coz the very pErson making us miserable

iS the onLy one who can take aLL the pain away
and they wont aLways be back to put the pieces together. not because they cAnt
but because they just wOnt
its weiRd how that can break your heart into a million more pieces
just when you thought it couldnt hurt more, it does
and it gets worse everyday
every single ticking of the clock without them is like a hammer to your chest
pounding
ever so siLently
vibrating pain aLL over your being
killing you softly
driving you wEak
just like when you had your first kiSs
who would have thought that there would be one person who can make you weak for a million different reasons
someone who can make you Lose control
Lose everything
even youRself
its not a bad thing, i tell you
no, not being weak
coz if it were,
why do i find myself smiling?

2006-03-19T13:08:00.000+08:00

hindi ko alam kung sa dami ng oras ko lately gumawa ng wala e dumadami rin ang problema ko o ang mga pinoproblema ko. bum na bum. nyeta. whoala.

hindi ko na maalala kung ano anong araw ako gumising ng maaga para maglakad at kumuha ng papel ng pinsan kong lumipad na't lahat e akalain mo hindi man lang nagpakita sa amin ni tita. ni ha ni ho, wala. sometimes, it irritates me to realize that she could have fixed her papers even before she left when she had all the time to do so. it could have been cheaper. it could not have made me get up early when i could have all the time moving around my bed. it could have save me from making this entry. it could have. but for some reason, hindi e. well, life..

thursday night, had a date with assehhole. we were suppose to watch an r18 film Hostel but he didnt like it so we decided to just see Brokeback Mountain. "I wish i kew how to quit you!" gOod times with this guy just seems endless. we had a goOd night. reaLLy good one! saturday night, my best bud aileen got me to watch She's the Man. honestly, it wasn't on my watch list. but after seeing this ohh so good feel-good movie, i laughed more than i could have had, had i watch any other film that day. wash out bad vibes ng araw na yun. just yet.. pauwi na ako. 9:45 sabado ng gabi. sa may Toyota Balintawak at Sogo Caloocan huminto ang bus nang may mamang bumaba. nagkagulo nalang nang sinundan pa ito ng pagbaba ng dalawang kalalakihan. holdap na pala. akalain mong sa harapan ko lang nangyari nag nasabing insidente at wala man lang akong kaalam- alam. nakasalubong namin ang isang police mobile at dun nagsimula ang imbestigasyon. asus, ayokong magsalita dahil baka di pa ako makauwi at dahil wala rin naman akong sasabihin kung ano man ang itatanong nila. to cut it short, nakauwi ako ng safe at eto nga ngayon, nagkukwento pa ng nasabing kaganapan. life..

bummified me, i can't get myself to just let the feeling go away. minsan, sinasabi ko im over that asshole. but most of the time, i cant help but miss him. well, i still see him. that's probably why. this issue has long been talked about. long should have been over. for him, probably yes. for me, doubting if it really was. i dont just wanna sit here all the waiting hours for something to happen. but i dont also know what to do now when i have tried doing every possible thing there is to do. this month, i set a date for it to be over. kung bukas makalawa, e magkakamali nanaman ako, its another set date. ilang final date setting pa ba? makakaalis pa ba ako sa glorietta? its driving me crazy.*zzppp.

sa gitna nang magulong ako, i miss someone more than anyone else. someone, i met months ago. someone, who gave me peace. someone, who made me happy. someone.. down the road. i wish. i hope. i could bump into again. and yes han, i missyou.

gulo ko noh. ako rin. minsan. madalas. hindi ko gets ang sarili ko. stage of whaat? i dont even know. ang alam ko lang. may nawawala. kung ako man yun. wish ko lang. bumalik ka na.

birthday gallery

2006-03-19T10:53:00.000+08:00

i would like t extend my deepest gratitude to every good and not-so-g00d person, circumstance, thing that in one way or another made year 22 a year to learn from. am lookin' forward to a more mature, more exciting, less painful year 23. i hope joyrney 23 will do me goOd!

2006-03-16T13:30:00.000+08:00

oist.. msta na?.. pinutulan kmi net dgdi ofc.. *grrr* kasuya to the max// d lugod Q mkcheck mail.. pero my hello aQ ky nkakapost aQ sa blogger. hah! he ddin't think of that! jinx on him.. hehe.. anyway.. mau mn.. feel Q lng magpost.. dpat kay my pix pra mkasurat aQ tx.. so treat this as a mesage.. delete mo nlng kng ano..hehe.. sori..paati sa page mo... anyway.. mau.. i'm so bored... life sucks.

2006-03-13T19:16:00.000+08:00

hi! it feels like i haven't visited you for a long, long time. of course its not that looong a time, it just feels like it. hihi. know what, lately am feeLing a little h*, i mean am feeling so h****!! haha.

my friend told me, its ok. it's just ok! well.. yeah, i'd like to think so.. maybe also, urges like this come out strong or even strongest during the monthly period. i just feel a little worried not that i haven't felt like this before, just that its strong this time... and i mean STRONG to the point of me wanting to do something about it. ohhh, ohhh, wag muna magisip ng kung anu ano. tinutulog ko na lang. ;) hehe.. at pagkagising mas matindi. early morning rush.. waaahhh! anyways, its good to be feelin' normal. don't yoou think!? smiles.

and bout my birthday.. had a blast!

headcount: me, tina, aan, geli, ros, marco, jelai, buddy aiai, kenn, tabz, donel, erg, ic

alcohol level: high. extreme high for me- lasing baga ang celebrant.hehe

fun level: extreme high. of course. its mah bday! ;)

btw, thanks for coming guys. to those who weren't able to come.. next year...

03.10.06

2006-03-10T16:02:00.000+08:00

KRISTINE

hAppy birthday to me!
haPpy birthday to me!

hapPy birthday!

happY birthday!

Happy birthday to me!

Jenneth

2006-03-06T20:14:00.000+08:00

i spent a quiet weekend with myseLf.. hihi.. it gave me time to clean the house, do the laundry, read, and think quietly even for a moment. i also get to visit sj peepz.. movie marathon with donel, maecel, and lalen. the boys are not home so we had our share of bonding. its a gimikless and alcohol- fRee weEkend..
tita, franc, des &
mOmy, dAdy, J arrived home earLy sunday evening.
btw, its mOmy's birthday today.

mOmy: auntie nene. my mother's youngest sister. brat. spoiLed. just kiddding. that was her years, i mean centuries ago when she's still single and feeling the apple of everyone's eyes as she's the youngest among 9 siblings. but mOmy now is a different nene. she's come to age and definitely to maturity. 'to si momy maalaga. very particular with details. she does what she believes is right. and iyakin man even until now palaban 'to. don't dare! si mOmy rin yung tipong pag umalis mamimiss mo.. at sempre hihintayin mo.. kase lagi may pasalubong.. lalo na sa akin.. hehe.. 03.06.06 birthday. labyu.

di man ako nakasama getaway in pangasinan, salamat tita sa pasaLubong, hihi. on momy's birthday, lumabas lang kami. pasyal the kids. at kain sa labas.

ibm

2006-03-03T16:44:00.000+08:00

waaaahhh! sang buwan na.. isang buwan na nang iwan kita. at ngayon ay naaalala nga kita. you were my first. and it was memorable. of course. araw araw. 8, 10, 12 and even 14 hrs. walang humpay. walang kapaguran. masayang balik- balikan. na gigising ako ng maaga para sa'yo. gugugulin ang buong araw sa pakikisalamuha sa iba't ibang mukha mo. tatayo. uupo. may mga araw na tila ayaw mo akong patulugin o kahit nga pauwiin. pinagod mo man ako ng sobra. naging masaya naman ako sa'yo. at ngayon nga ay naalala kita dahil pagod man ay marami ring masasayang sandaling pinagsaluhan. salamat. it was a personal choice to leave you. not that i werent happy, because i were, but because i... i can't really tell until now.. precisely.. it just didn't feel right. i could have held on but i chose to let you go. and it was the most peaceful decision i could have made at that moment. if and when that times comes, im ready and you're there,who knows..

how i miss you, ibm

2006-03-03T16:38:00.000+08:00

03.03.06

fRiday

am supposed to go to pangasinan for a weekend break.. summer get away na sana.. napurnada pa. sorry na lang ako.. di ako makakasama.. hehe.. dady, mOmy and juLius are coming this weekend.. hay. hay. pasaLubong mOmy ha.. =) and haPy birthday on the 6th. labyu.

sweet asShoLe

2006-03-02T15:27:00.000+08:00

sweet asshoLe

"nalulungkot ako.. hindi, lungkot na lungkot ako.. hindi ko alam kung pano hihinga.." natunaw ako.. ito na yata ang sa totohanang buhay pinakamatatamis na narinig ko.. so sincere.. it wasn't for me.. a friend (?) told me that after retelling how he and his girl broke up.. ouch.. that hurts.. im not suppose to be sayin this or lettin' the world know about this but i will..

march 26, 2005 nang magsimula ang lahat..
biro lang.. laro lang.. nothing serious.. i don't mind.. he does not either.. we were happy.. happy to the point na pareho kaming nakalimot..
slowly falling..
fallen i must say..
simula palang wala nang tama..
we were friends >we still are<.. he has a special someone .. i lost mine not too long ago.. he was nowhere near my league.. i wasn't ready.. but just when you think you're safe, accidents do happen... masaya.. exciting.. tagu-taguan maliwanag ang buwan.. for months it went on.. it wasn't right.. and we both know it.. sarili namin ang mundo.. masaya though we could not let the whole world know about it. shhh.. masaya..

gLorietta.. dito lagi natatapos.. dito lagi naghihiwalay. and yes "lagi" ..we'd always try to let go.. but we keep on missing each other.. we keep on coming back.. doing the same mistake..

until that day, we finally(?) decided..

i left because everytime you smiLe at me, (that one smile) i could not resist you.. i could not lie whenever you look at me.. for a while i thought i had moved on.. gotten a life away.. but i came home.. and there you are again.. smiling at me.. i swear to make you happy.. all of you happy.. so, i decided to play the game once more (crazy am i not?).. this time not to let emotions play it for me.. good. good game. i got what i wanted. panalo kung sasabihin. saturation point for him. now, he has nothing more to look for. to smile at. to play it with. gone.

saksi ako ngayon sa napakaraming kaganapan.. mga pangyayaring dapat. DAPAT. ay hindi ko na alam. but i do. i do know. alam kong minsan ay nagkamali ako. minsan minahal kita. minsan may nasaktan ako. dahil sa sandaling minsan na iyon, naging masaya ako. minsan pa hayaan mong ibalik ko sayo lahat ng ibinigay mo sa akin. salamat. in all honesty.

*minsan, naisip ko.. kung sa simula kaya tama lahat o kahit konti lang nun.. would it have been..? ano ba talaga? bakit ba talaga? ngayon, sa aking pag- iisip.. masasabi kong hindi pala talaga.. not because i see now that you have found what you've been seeking for but because i don't think i can give more than what i had given already. that it can no longer be greater than that. that no love can make things fit or right.. masakit isipin, i tell you. masakit. masakit na masakit.*

now, you still have something that is mine.. and its time i have it back.. and im taking it back.. for good!!!

it's been a year, almost.. at dito na natatapos ang larong minsang pinasaya at sinaktan ako ng sobra.. though it seems like nasa glorietta pa rin ako.. hayaan mong kahit tila nandun pa rin ako, e makuha ko nang muli ang matagal mo nang ninakaw skin, sadya man o hindi, totoo man o biro lang. hayaan mong ako naman ang huminga..

i want this back!

baka sakaling makaalis na ako sa glorietta..

akaLain mo...

2006-03-02T13:27:00.000+08:00

akalain mo.

unang araw palang.. saksakan na ng saya.. habang ako ay tumatawid sa panulukan ng Ortigas ay may lalaki sa kanyang itim na shirt, shades at pormang mala- anak ng pulitikong namumudmod ng pera, ang bigla na lamang lumapit sa akin >sa gitna yan ng pedestrian ha< sabay sabing " miss, pwede ba kitang makilala?" like? helo. sa gitna ng kalsada. sa ilalim ng umiinit na araw. at sa likod ng marahil ay madilim nyang shades.. ano daw?? kaya naman ang beauty ng lola mo e "excuse me?" sabay lakad ng matulin na para bang gustong magmaganda at matakot at the same time. lola mo. ganda. lol.

nung gabi, pababa na kame ng sasakyan ng mga kaibigan ko ng bigla namang nagalit ang langit at umiyak ng pagkalakas.. isang oras.. mahigit.. wala kaming magawa kundi magtangahan sa loob ng palamig ng palamig na sasakyan.. bRrrr... piktyuran.. nang bigla kaming iduyan ng malakas na lindoL.. akaLain mo yun.. isang Isuzu DMax naiduyan nya.. lakas..

eto pa, pauwi na kami.. nang muntik pang masagasaan ang isang traffic enforcer na ewan ko ba naman kung lasing o sadyang hinahamon si kamatayan.. aba'y muntik na sya ah.. idadamay pa kami. hmmm..

saya..

akaLain moi.

2006-03-01T23:18:00.000+08:00

MARCH

Mars' monthMiddle English

March(e)Anglo-French

March(e)Old English MartiusLatin Martius "of Mars"

Latin Marti(s) "Mars" + -us (adj. suffix)

Latin Martius mensis "month of Mars"

Martius has always had 31 days.

March was the original beginning of the year, and the time for the resumption of war.

Mars is the Roman god of war. He is identified with the Greek god Ares.

this month's mine.. balato nyo na sakin to. month-long celeb to. so far, so good.. ;)
hay. *deep breathe*
yesterday, tuesday my friend arrived from isabela. she will be leaving for dubai in a couple of days.so, quality time kame. isang txt lang. go na kame. layas d2. layas doon. kaya naman chika ever kame ng magkita. mEmoirs of a gEisha together. walang humpay na tawanan. kulitan. at tangahan. haha.
today's wednesday, ash wednesday. wasnt able to attend mass. miss on having that black cross on my forehead. tsk. tsk. joy, grace, boyet and i had dinner. time before joy leaves again.
ngayong araw ding ito ang simula dapat ng pinakamasasayang araw ng taon ko. ok naman. pero hindi ko maitago ang lungkot. sorry. i can't help it. hay. *deep breathe* its been a crazy year.. so far! raming pagbabago.. i became a vegetarian.. bolder.. deadLy.. had to give up on something to regain another.. tougher.. i still cry don't get me wrong.. still know how to.. crazy year.. crazy me.. onLy been 2 months.. 306 days.. still a long way to journey.. intresting life.. its March.. its mine! gimme this one.

you are invited!

2006-02-27T17:42:00.000+08:00

god,imissyou guys. know, i haven't been doing much lately but sleep. read. lamon. go out. drink. mag enjoy. magsaya. magblog. mamasyal at magpakalango sa hindi naman ipinagbabawal na inuman. hmm.. that's a lot of doing nothing. lol. basta, sana makasama ko kayong lahat sa friday. kung aling friday yun, sana alam nyo na dahil magtatampo ako kung hindi.

hhmmmm.. cge na nga. im suppose to invite you all sa pagpasok pa ng buwan, but i can't help it.i hate waiting. eto na, moment na. perfect.

sa friday na iyon. na espesyal sa akin. ako, kristine j. laborte, ay taos- pusong nag- iimbita sa lahat ng members ng group na eto upang makisaya sa akin sa araw na iyon. god, im old. ohhh, gets mo na kung anong araw ang sinasabi ko? at kung hindi pa rin.. pagtatakhan ko kung kaibigan nga ba talaga kita.. walangja!

good thing i sent this invitation ahead.. as in ahead of time.. for the benefit of those who do not often check their mails. eto, sana ay maabot pa eto ng mga precious ninyong time.

PAKIUSAP: sana. mali. Dapat. ako ay nagdedemand. na kayo ay pumunta sa araw na iyon. lubos kong ikagagalak ang inyo pong presensya!

when: dapat alam mo na.. basta friday yun.
time: pag wala ng araw. game na. hindi mo gugustuhing ma-late, i tell you.
where: hihi. i have yet to decide.
what: wala lang. papawiin ko ang uhaw nyo! sure yan!!!

imiszyu aLL. see you all...

http://groups.yahoo.com/group/cnsc_iv-a_2000/

hoOkeD

2006-02-25T19:55:00.000+08:00

muLa sa Meteor Garden hanggang sa Lovers in Paris, Only You at ngayon nga sa Princess Lulu, umuuwi ako ng bahay ng maaga, whenever possible, just to watch them. la e, gaan sila panoorin. kakatuwang tumawa sa mga katangahang pwedeng ikaw o ako e natatatanga rin. haha. kakabawas kahit pano ng pagod. at sempre kaka- entertain. kakapagod yung mga iyakan e. mga dramang pahirap sa buhay ko. ahahahhh.

sankapa.. e di dun sa tatawa ka. seriousLy.

EDSA

2006-02-24T11:22:00.000+08:00

EDSA. Epifanio Delos Santos Avenue. daan. the gathering of the saints. miracle.

dalawampung taon na ang nakalipas. . ang lumipas. magta-tatlong taon pa lang ako non nang ipamalas ng lahing pinoy ang isang rebolusyong mapayapa. saksi ang buong mundo kung paano minsan pa, ang mumunting mga tinig ay kayang lumikha ng inaasam na pagbabago. dalampungtaon? rebolusyon para saan? may nagbago ba? natamo ba ang inaasam? last night, i stayed late to watch probe. edsa ang punung paksa. isang pagbabalik tanaw. sa aking panonood, tila ba ibinalik ako ng panahon sa araw na iyon. di ko man lubusang alam o dama kung ano nga ba talaga, sa puso ko it feels proud to be a Filipino! punung-puno na raw ang mga pilipino noon.

sa pang-aalipin. sa madahas at makasariling sistema. sa bulok at nakakasukang pamamalakad.

punoung- puno na kinailangang isakalye ang kung anumang isinisigaw ng bawat pusong nagsusumidhi. tagumpay. isang matagumpay na pagpapalaya sa bawat ibong tila nasadlak sa mahabang pagkakakulong sabik sa paglipad. euphoric. iyon ay dalawmpungtaon na ang nakalipas. ngayon ay taong 2006. 2006. sa pangkasalukuyang panahon, tila hindi pa rin umuusad ang mga taon. kaliwa't kanang pagbabangayaan. pagpapabango ng sari-sariling imahe. lantarang pagpapakita ng kasabikan sa kapangyarihan. blahblahblah. nakakapagod at nakalulungkot isiping tila nabalewala ang kung anumang ipinaglaban ng kapwa pinoy dalawpungtaon na ang nagdaan. bayan nga ba o pansarili lamang? kaninang umaga lamang ay ginising ako ng isang tawag. wala daw pasok. nag-coup attempt daw. nagpatawang ng pulong ang palasyo. tanong ko.. will history repeat itself? gusto kong bumalik sa pagkakatulog at isiping isa lang iyung panaginip. pero hindi ako pinatulog. naglalaro rin sa isipan ko ang kung ano mang maaaring maganap sa mga susunod na oras na ako'y nahihimbing sa aking pagkakatulog. turn the tv on. makibalita. traffic. bumper to bumper. masisikip na kalsada. sa ika- dalawampungtaong paggunita sa makasaysayang edsa, ang bansa ay nasa ilalim ng State of National Emergency. waaaahhhh. zzzzpp.

go? :)

2006-02-23T13:14:00.000+08:00

fragmented

2006-02-21T14:10:00.000+08:00

it's so nice to be happy.. shalala.. ahahahahhh.. uuyyy, kumakanta sya.. ahihihih. well anyway, let the blogging begin...

wednesday night: hindi ako makatulog. ewan ko ba. basta, uneasy. ansama sa pakiramdam na gusto mo nang matulog but you cannot. you would not. btw, i got tita's new cp, SE K750i. gorgeous! she had to treat me for doing so. ahahahahhh! veggie pizza @ pizza hut.
fyi: im a vegetarian. no meat. but not all meat. ahahahaahh!! huliii kaa! hmmm.. kaw nag isip nyan hindi ako. (but not all meat. i mean. i do eat chicken.)
thursday night: pre-bday for tita. lights will do. pampatulog lang. solb. oks. hihi.
friday night: am suppose to go back to UP for the feb fair. i did not. mood swings. uminom lang mag isa. why not.
saturday night: nagluto si tita ng isang masarap na dinner. ohh so yummy dinner. friends came over to celebrate with us. kantahan. inuman. bailey's baby.
sunday night: celebrate good times c'mon! ahahahahh! it was a choice. whole-heartedly decided on it. you must have been really special. must have been. must be. bettter be. one sweet asShoLe. maaga pa ang gabi. sayang. labas tayo. went to baywalk. Nthology. ate. drank. chitchat. had fun. got drunk. masaya. masaya talaga. no words to describe it. went home together. call it a day. good day. one of my bests.

strike3. 1. 1...

last night, ez and i were suppose to have coffee. (baka sakaling magising ako at matauhan) i was already there. 6750 corner. waiting. waiting. haluy mo ez. hehe. di, kei lng. it gave me time to compose myself. there she was. late. ahihihhih. gutom ang lola mo. so we had to go somewhere we can have something to put in her empty big chan. ahhahahah. just kidding. ayun. The Big Grill. somewhere G2 side. mala. kain o inom? uhaw. inom sempre. ahahahhh.

bucket+ sisig+calamari+walang katapusang katatawanan= big night!

p*ksh*T!

we had more fun than we thought. hala. deleted baga lahat ng pics ko sa cam. bad trip. dko pa naa- upload yun. at least 1/3 of it. feb fair. star city. ibm. tita's bday. and all other pics. gRgRgRRggrrrr. inis. suya. sira. oh well. wala na. all gone. here's what's left. puro kakulitan. mukhang tanga. ahahahhh!!

5 days in a row. puro alcohol na katawan ko. lumalakas na. matagal nang tumama. ahahahhh. practice makes perfect.

i just learned of a thing. something. whatever you call it.habang nagpapakagaga ako over a game.a project i meant doing. over some katangahan. there they were. having troubles on the other side. i was never sorry when i learned about it. sad. i must admit. but never sorry. i believe. i think. it brings me back the feeling of having it all. and in an instance. gone. all gone. guilty? probably. maybe.

it got me thinkin' ... am i really a good player?

i'd like to think none of my kagagahans contributed or even so aggravated the situation. siguro nga guilty lang ako. siguro nga hindi ko lang matanggap na kung kelan pwede na ang hindi e hindi pa rin tama ang mali. na kahit kelan ay hindi na magiging tama ang mga maling simula. na may mga bagay na sadyang hindi para sayo no matter how much you want it or try to have it. i do not take comfort in knowing that i got what i wanted. was it really what i wanted? or was i just being mean?

it's been a year. almost. just now i realize. i cannot. i can never really let go of something i never had. it will always. and always just be there. haunting you. enslaving you. i do not wish to be freed from that haunting. from that enslavement. if it will mean not having you. not having you at all.

waaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i thought i was over it. for a while, i thought it was. i was. but then again, the haunting just gets even more wanting. as if you've always wanted to be haunted. i try to make myself as distant as possible. but the more i get distant, the more i get even closer. even more longing. even more needing.

resolution: nothing i can really do to forget it all. hindi madedelete kagaya ng entries sa blog na eto. memories will always be memories. unless nagka- amnesia ako. the best that i can do with this worse situation is

>> accept the fact that it can never be. at least sa mga panahong ito. >ahahahh.. who knows.. you. i . we can never. NEVER SAY NEVER as what my friend always tells me<>

>>try to get used to the feeling without doing anything about it. it'll pass. hope so.

>> i know i cannot. can but not let it go. @ least get a life tin! apart from all the katangahan at kagagahan. ahahahhhhh! and that's the way to live it! aha! .. aha! i like it... ahhhhhhhhaaaahahaaaaaHhhh! o ayan. sira mode nanaman ako. psycho me. * imissyou. pout.

divine

2006-02-20T15:44:00.000+08:00

tita donna

tita koh. wife to my uncle. mother to my cousin franc. sine- buddy. friend. COOL... ohh soo CooL tita. kainuman. kachismisan. mabait. caring. masarap magluto. carefree. galaera. oh well, nasa pamilya. ahehehe. open- minded. madaldal. makuwento. masaya kasama. kajam. strong. matatag. the epitome of energy.. heheheh. walang kapaguran 'to, mapagala o work, kaastigan tong babaeng to. 02.19 birthday. labyu.

wabu!

2006-02-18T12:09:00.000+08:00

windang

2006-02-17T16:06:00.001+08:00

02.17.06

masaya. ano nga ba yun. pano nga ba nakukuha. nakakamit. natatamo. isa. dalawa. tatlong oras nakong nakahiga. ayaw. di dalawin ng antok. langyah. gustooo ko nang matulog. apat. lima. p*ksh*t umaga na. dilat pa rin mga mata ko. bumaba nako. uminon ng tubig. turn the tv on. chips. hay. music channel. restless. confused. there i was. lying. wandering. all my life.. di pako mamamatay but my life seems to be flashing right before the very pretty me.. all i ever wanted was to be happy! one need after another. one satisfaction after the next. i do want i want. go wherever i wanna be. buy stuff that i like. spend as much as i wish. nung bata ako, sabi ko mag-aaral akong mabuti. magtatapos. magtatrabaho. bibilhin ang lahat ng naisin. eventually mag-aasawa. mabubuhay ng matahimik. and at the end of it all, dadating ang dapithapon at sadyang titigil ang bawat pintig. yayao. lahat yun, nung bata ako, kala ko sa bawat yugto na matatamo, magiging masaya ako. walang ibang dapat maramdaman kundi pasaya. ng pasaya.. ng pasaya.. ang buhay. hindi nako bata ngayon. pero sa aking konsepto ng saya, tila hindi ko pa rin matanto "precisely" para sa akin ang salitang iyon. sa bawat yugtong pinagdaanan, tila panandalian lahat ng tuwa. lahat nagmamaliw. minsan nga iniisip ko, kung lahat lahat kaya ng naisin ko e makuha ko, maging maligaya na kaya talaga ako? kung hindi, what does it take to be hapPy? magkano ba? saan ba? kanino ba? paaNo?

hay.windang moments. they come. they go. happy?

friday ngayon. gimik night. waa ako sa mood. i want to be alone. alone as in just by me, myself and i, alone.

UP Feb Fair

2006-02-16T14:11:00.000+08:00

02.14.06

valentine's day. tulog buong araw. at baket? =) feeling mo naman may date ka kinagabihan... yep, date with my friends. punta kami UP, feb f air. gabi na nang dumating kami dun. salamat sa traffic. pagdating palang, kaenga-enganyo ang paligid. asows. uU. pormado pa naman ako. tayuan at lakaran pala yun. akalain mo yun! no kidding, 'twas ok. tagabo ang sounds. jam-packed. sold out ang tickets. so wacha think? ;) umaga na nang umuwi kame. isang masayang umaga. salamat.

2006-02-15T12:23:00.000+08:00

02.14.06

matalino daw ako. composed. matigas.
pero pag puso ang pinag uusapan, marami- raming beses na yatang i haven't been me. noon, sabi ko. pag dumating sya, yun na yun. walang bitawan. walang ayawan. pero hindi pala kasing simple ng 1+1 ang pag- ibig. may pagkakataong napagod ako. walang mali. lahat ok. pero hindi pala yun ang inaakala kong yun na yun. may pagkakataong, magpapahinga muna ang pusong pagod. may pagkakataong may kumatok. matalino nga bang magpapasok uli? matalino man o hindi, nandun n naman. yun. fairytale romance. saya. kala mo uli yun na yun. hindi pa rin pala. at sa isang di inaasahang pagkakataon matapos ang mahaba habang pamamahinga, muling nasubukan ang ating katalinuhan. palpak nga sigurong matatawag. may mga bagay na sadyang hindi para sa atin. meron namang gagong ayaw mong papasukin pero sadyang nandon na even before you know it. subalit hindi pwede. maling simula. maling pagkakataon. kung may tamang panahon man. ayoko nang hintayin. masaya na akong kahit sa habambuhay na eto ay mag pagkakataon para sa atin.
siguro nga hindi kelangang maging matalino pagdating sa pag- ibig. hindi kelangang matigas. dahil ang puso daw pag tumibok hahamakin ang lahat masunod ka lamang. hay. valentine rush.

gimikera

2006-02-13T17:36:00.000+08:00

hay.yay.yay.

i saved a draft of a long-week blog yesterday only to find out ngayon ngayon lang na wala palang nasave. akalain mo yun! hmmmp. again. again. again.

from the top.

last blog date 01.28.06

what happened thereafter...

01.31.06

technically, last day with ibm. but of course i had to stay for the turn-over. and so i did.

02.02.06

went out with ibm peepz. went drinkin' and billiards @ top venue. cool. first time with them. fun. good. clean.

02.03.06

yan, last day ko na talaga. was late in coming to office. brought food for the despedida. sent my thank you emails. and had a moment feeling sad. kakalungkot din pala. why not. ibm gave me a lot of firsts i will not forget, ever.

ang tulog ko ng gabing eto ang pinakamasarap na tulog ko in 4months. why not. i deserve it.

02.07.06

tapos one day ang clearance. ayus. e-bar with ibm peepz nung gabi. yun. masaya. hala. ralasing baga. ahahahah! hilo hilo pagdating sa bahay. in fairness, had fun that night.

02.09.06

exemplar eldhee's birthday. pi birthday bro.

02.12.06

star city with sj peepz. enjoy of course. ang big sister nanlamig. ninerbyos sa mga rides. hehe. aminin mo nasayahan ka naman sa mga kakakabang rides daba! hihi.

back to reality.
ngayon ay ika- 13 sa buwan ng pebrero, love month. bukas ay mabenta ang mga bulaklak at restawran para sa date ng mga magsing- irog. corniness o rOmanticness? bahla kna. kung san ka masaya dun ka. wehehe. ako? single. by choice. pero masaya! sya nga ba? ahhh.. hmm.. ehh.. ohh.. ahahahahh... ooo noh, saya...
but open to doubling opportunities..wink.wink.

2006-01-29T15:02:00.000+08:00

01.21.06

fine dining @ Burgoo with co-exemplars paul and jean... meet up after a long time. the usual kwentuhan and planning at the same time of activities lined up for the alumni and undergrads.

01.22.06

after a long night with the exemplars, dretso sj ang lola mo. whatelse to do,aram na.;)
had to wake myself up to catch pacman's big game..why not..money is at stake if he wins..hehe... bet you too bet for him..hehehe..pizza agad, panalo e..yum.yum.

01.23.06

ngurag ako pagdating ng office. headaches.bodyaches.hala.parainum ta ay.ahahahah!

01.26.06

coffeee with doc. talking about keeping good people to stay with the company. yeah sure why not!

01.27.06

had to let it go! some good things aren't just worth holding on to. some better let'n go! sad i was.. nothing i can do bout it now. had to stand firm with my decision.

for all i know, somethin better's coming.. that's why HE takes away?

1st day..

2006-01-18T19:42:00.000+08:00

1st day here..
am home..
am sick..
am bored..
maybe not a bad time to do this..

wuussshhhuuu!