Tuesday, June 12, 2007
blah_ Weekend has never been like staying in an 8x4 prison cell where escape seems impracticable except that the house is not an 8x4 place & I have the luxury of connecting to the internet, cooking my own food, taking baths whenever heat strokes, and an endless unguarded possibility of doing things my way. Why not, no one was home except me. Don’t you just love it, the freedom of doing the things you want in solitary? To own the world you want to believe is good enough to cradle your aspiration? Sleep as long as you want, wake up whenever you like it, dial the fast food for a delivery, and live in an imaginable world for as long you can bear it? I am lucky to have the life that I have now no matter what. I guess that’s just what I’m trying to get at. I’m living my life. Because you know, I don’t want to wake up one day, and realize that I’m trapped in my own desires. Betrayed by the very people I care about. And has lived a life fabricated by the choices I can no longer undo. And that’s my blah_blah for the day. =)
can you feel the beat?
5:20 AM