Wednesday, January 31, 2007
A dose of coffee early in the morning stirs my senses from potential to kinetic energy. Doses of cold Strawberry Starbucks Cappuccino earlier in the morning just gave me my first fight of the year. *brain freeze* I did not see this coming neither was I anticipating for this but then it did… it came… in the most unexpected time. Just when I thought I was going to have a very good morning and/or day for that matter, I did not. The truth is I have not yet slept in more than 24 hours now. Not that I don’t want to because If I choose to, I can, but the thing is, I can’t. How can I let slumber take me in when over some *petty reason* I could lose someone I have gotten close with… a good friend, the moment I have awaken. I’m not sure if this thought is going anywhere close to making sense. Neither am I sure if today or in the days to come I still can call him friend. I’m not sure. I don’t know… And honestly, it’s starting to scare me… it does now… to one day wake up and never have him again. I don’t want to make anymore excuses, let me just say…
I am deeply sorry for whatever I may have done!
*I hope the happy days are not overshadowed by one bad coffee day…
can you feel the beat?
11:21 AM