Labels: 5 minutes, catch, fall, happier, love, man, smiles, thoughts
Friday, January 26, 2007
5 minutes... Barely 5 minutes ago, I was asked upfront what do you want at this very moment? And then I started thinking.. pondering at that very moment 5 minutes ago what is it that I really want at that very moment..
I want a man… I want a man! I needingly said. Then the person who came right in front of me out of nowhere disappeared in a flash. * This is no hallucination. I am at work and the person I am referring to is an officemate. But of course for blogging purposes let’s pretend to delete this annotation =) * I think I saw her smirk after I gave my answer. I do not know what that was for but I guess that smirk made me realize that it’s not only 5 minutes ago that I want a man in my life. I have wanted him for as long as I can remember but never came across to meeting that one man who will prove me that life indeed is much more worth living when you’re sharing it with someone special.
Someone who isn't perfect *as no one is* but someone who is real.
Someone who can put up with all that I am.
Someone I can have a good laugh & a good conversation with.
Someone who at the end of the day no matter how filty & ngarag I may be will still say,
that's my woman & i love her just the same!
I always say this and will always be saying this until that one day when I will come bumping into that man…
I would want to find a man who is strong enough to catch me!
Dilemma, I have been having for quite a time now but rarely do I put focus on needingly wanting him until 5 minutes ago..
I’m a princess with no prince.
..A lady without a man.
..A damsel in distress.
Don’t get me wrong, I’m happy. It’s just that I know I can be happier!
Thoughts are rumbling in my head and I can’t seem to get them all out. Do you not wish that sometimes you weren’t a princess so you won’t need a prince? That sometimes things are different? That we don’t have to pretend we do not want something when all our being is roaring to need it? That sometimes at the end of the rainbow the’ll be someone with a bouquet of roses.. or even just a rose.. a red one.. with long stem.. and no thorns? *smiles *
I’m word vomiting right now.. do you not notice? I’m in front of my desktop with much work to do and I can’t grasp any fiber of sanity in me right now. I think I need a dose of a heart- palpitating Starbucks coffee *which reminds me of a date with my batchmates on Monday for our monthsary*
Now I’m smiling.. and wondrin’ why?
Why not?
*zZzZpPp.. thoughts keep me awake.. thank you!
can you feel the beat?
10:39 PM