Thursday, March 02, 2006
sweet asshoLe
"nalulungkot ako.. hindi, lungkot na lungkot ako.. hindi ko alam kung pano hihinga.." natunaw ako.. ito na yata ang sa totohanang buhay pinakamatatamis na narinig ko.. so sincere.. it wasn't for me.. a friend (?) told me that after retelling how he and his girl broke up.. ouch.. that hurts.. im not suppose to be sayin this or lettin' the world know about this but i will..
march 26, 2005 nang magsimula ang lahat..
biro lang.. laro lang.. nothing serious.. i don't mind.. he does not either.. we were happy.. happy to the point na pareho kaming nakalimot..
slowly falling..
fallen i must say..
simula palang wala nang tama..
we were friends >we still are<.. he has a special someone .. i lost mine not too long ago.. he was nowhere near my league.. i wasn't ready.. but just when you think you're safe, accidents do happen... masaya.. exciting.. tagu-taguan maliwanag ang buwan.. for months it went on.. it wasn't right.. and we both know it.. sarili namin ang mundo.. masaya though we could not let the whole world know about it. shhh.. masaya.. gLorietta.. dito lagi natatapos.. dito lagi naghihiwalay. and yes "lagi" ..we'd always try to let go.. but we keep on missing each other.. we keep on coming back.. doing the same mistake.. until that day, we finally(?) decided.. i left because everytime you smiLe at me, (that one smile) i could not resist you.. i could not lie whenever you look at me.. for a while i thought i had moved on.. gotten a life away.. but i came home.. and there you are again.. smiling at me.. i swear to make you happy.. all of you happy.. so, i decided to play the game once more (crazy am i not?).. this time not to let emotions play it for me.. good. good game. i got what i wanted. panalo kung sasabihin. saturation point for him. now, he has nothing more to look for. to smile at. to play it with. gone. saksi ako ngayon sa napakaraming kaganapan.. mga pangyayaring dapat. DAPAT. ay hindi ko na alam. but i do. i do know. alam kong minsan ay nagkamali ako. minsan minahal kita. minsan may nasaktan ako. dahil sa sandaling minsan na iyon, naging masaya ako. minsan pa hayaan mong ibalik ko sayo lahat ng ibinigay mo sa akin. salamat. in all honesty. *minsan, naisip ko.. kung sa simula kaya tama lahat o kahit konti lang nun.. would it have been..? ano ba talaga? bakit ba talaga? ngayon, sa aking pag- iisip.. masasabi kong hindi pala talaga.. not because i see now that you have found what you've been seeking for but because i don't think i can give more than what i had given already. that it can no longer be greater than that. that no love can make things fit or right.. masakit isipin, i tell you. masakit. masakit na masakit.* now, you still have something that is mine.. and its time i have it back.. and im taking it back.. for good!!! it's been a year, almost.. at dito na natatapos ang larong minsang pinasaya at sinaktan ako ng sobra.. though it seems like nasa glorietta pa rin ako.. hayaan mong kahit tila nandun pa rin ako, e makuha ko nang muli ang matagal mo nang ninakaw skin, sadya man o hindi, totoo man o biro lang. hayaan mong ako naman ang huminga.. i want this back!baka sakaling makaalis na ako sa glorietta..
can you feel the beat?
3:27 PM
