it feels so bad. it feels so heavy. i don't even know why. am not even sure if it is right to feel this way. then again why do i get the feeling that i have to explain myself when i don't have to. i don't think i owe anyone that. this open online journal can be accessed by those who know how to. to have the opportunity to see through me can be a privilige or otherwise depending on how well you know me or want to know me. violent reaction, criticism, comments solicited or not are welcome on this page. but none, none of them will ever make me say that how i felt at a particular time is wrong or is at the least not right. sure, i make mistakes but just like entries on this blog, emotions are spontaneous. when you feel it, that's it. and i don't see anything wrong with being happy, exalted, worried, sad, angry or even irritated.. for these emotions are but normal to us, people. these, like all other things come and go. but just because they come and then go, doesn't mean it isn't real. they are! it does not mean either that when they come, they are there to stay. so why's and but's confronting these come and go stuff cannot or does make any part of seeing through me right or wrong.

to those who do not know me. do not know me well enough. i don't think there will be a 'right' neither a 'wrong' word for you to change the way you see me as a person.

to those who know me. know me well enough. i leave it up to you!

now, that just made me explain myself. if by this, iam still not understood. that's none of my issues anymore. again. that will depend on how well you know me!!!