Sunday, March 19, 2006
on happiness...
its aLL we ever need, righT?!
to bE happy?
in the eNd, its the onLy thing we wAnt to ever haVe
haPpiness
it jusT sUcks when your hAppiness depeNds on sOmeone eLse
wHen its out oF your conTroL
when it couLd disappear in a sNap
i heard soMewhere that one's haPpiness shouLdn't depend on otheR people
fOr how cAn we be geNuineLy happy with someone eLse if wE can't be happy on our own
that's buLLshit to me, right nOw
being aLone sucKs
especially when you know how iT is to be inLove
or maybe i'Ve just had a bad day
i was thinking how one person can tAke hoLd oF you without trying
without evEr knowing it
how can we Let that happen? how can we leT things like these catch us off guard?
the heart is a vEry fragiLe thing
we can't just Let anyone have it.
we shouLdn't
coz if we're not carefuL, it'LL break into thousands of pieces
and i beLieve, that if that happens, and we decide to put it aLL back, there wiLL aLways be a few too many pieces missing
we might nOt know it,
might not aDmit it
but broken hearts, even if mended wiLL aLways have scars
marks that wiLL remind us how much it hurts to be broken
to have someOne break you inTo pieces
and you know whaT's worse
no matter how hard we try to make things better, it wOnt
coz the very pErson making us miserable iS the onLy one who can take aLL the pain away
and they wont aLways be back to put the pieces together. not because they cAnt
but because they just wOnt
its weiRd how that can break your heart into a million more pieces
just when you thought it couldnt hurt more, it does
and it gets worse everyday
every single ticking of the clock without them is like a hammer to your chest
pounding
ever so siLently
vibrating pain aLL over your being
killing you softly
driving you wEak
just like when you had your first kiSs
who would have thought that there would be one person who can make you weak for a million different reasons
someone who can make you Lose control
Lose everything
even youRself
its not a bad thing, i tell you
no, not being weak
coz if it were,
why do i find myself smiling?
can you feel the beat?
2:51 PM