Sunday, March 19, 2006
hindi ko alam kung sa dami ng oras ko lately gumawa ng wala e dumadami rin ang problema ko o ang mga pinoproblema ko. bum na bum. nyeta. whoala. hindi ko na maalala kung ano anong araw ako gumising ng maaga para maglakad at kumuha ng papel ng pinsan kong lumipad na't lahat e akalain mo hindi man lang nagpakita sa amin ni tita. ni ha ni ho, wala. sometimes, it irritates me to realize that she could have fixed her papers even before she left when she had all the time to do so. it could have been cheaper. it could not have made me get up early when i could have all the time moving around my bed. it could have save me from making this entry. it could have. but for some reason, hindi e. well, life.. thursday night, had a date with assehhole. we were suppose to watch an r18 film Hostel but he didnt like it so we decided to just see Brokeback Mountain. "I wish i kew how to quit you!" gOod times with this guy just seems endless. we had a goOd night. reaLLy good one! saturday night, my best bud aileen got me to watch She's the Man. honestly, it wasn't on my watch list. but after seeing this ohh so good feel-good movie, i laughed more than i could have had, had i watch any other film that day. wash out bad vibes ng araw na yun. just yet.. pauwi na ako. 9:45 sabado ng gabi. sa may Toyota Balintawak at Sogo Caloocan huminto ang bus nang may mamang bumaba. nagkagulo nalang nang sinundan pa ito ng pagbaba ng dalawang kalalakihan. holdap na pala. akalain mong sa harapan ko lang nangyari nag nasabing insidente at wala man lang akong kaalam- alam. nakasalubong namin ang isang police mobile at dun nagsimula ang imbestigasyon. asus, ayokong magsalita dahil baka di pa ako makauwi at dahil wala rin naman akong sasabihin kung ano man ang itatanong nila. to cut it short, nakauwi ako ng safe at eto nga ngayon, nagkukwento pa ng nasabing kaganapan. life.. bummified me, i can't get myself to just let the feeling go away. minsan, sinasabi ko im over that asshole. but most of the time, i cant help but miss him. well, i still see him. that's probably why. this issue has long been talked about. long should have been over. for him, probably yes. for me, doubting if it really was. i dont just wanna sit here all the waiting hours for something to happen. but i dont also know what to do now when i have tried doing every possible thing there is to do. this month, i set a date for it to be over. kung bukas makalawa, e magkakamali nanaman ako, its another set date. ilang final date setting pa ba? makakaalis pa ba ako sa glorietta? its driving me crazy.*zzppp. sa gitna nang magulong ako, i miss someone more than anyone else. someone, i met months ago. someone, who gave me peace. someone, who made me happy. someone.. down the road. i wish. i hope. i could bump into again. and yes han, i missyou.gulo ko noh. ako rin. minsan. madalas. hindi ko gets ang sarili ko. stage of whaat? i dont even know. ang alam ko lang. may nawawala. kung ako man yun. wish ko lang. bumalik ka na.
can you feel the beat?
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