strike3. 1. 1... bucket+ sisig+calamari+walang katapusang katatawanan= big night! p*ksh*T! we had more fun than we thought. hala. deleted baga lahat ng pics ko sa cam. bad trip. dko pa naa- upload yun. at least 1/3 of it. feb fair. star city. ibm. tita's bday. and all other pics. gRgRgRRggrrrr. inis. suya. sira. oh well. wala na. all gone. here's what's left. puro kakulitan. mukhang tanga. ahahahhh!! 5 days in a row. puro alcohol na katawan ko. lumalakas na. matagal nang tumama. ahahahhh. practice makes perfect. i just learned of a thing. something. whatever you call it.habang nagpapakagaga ako over a game.a project i meant doing. over some katangahan. there they were. having troubles on the other side. i was never sorry when i learned about it. sad. i must admit. but never sorry. i believe. i think. it brings me back the feeling of having it all. and in an instance. gone. all gone. guilty? probably. maybe. it got me thinkin' ... am i really a good player? i'd like to think none of my kagagahans contributed or even so aggravated the situation. siguro nga guilty lang ako. siguro nga hindi ko lang matanggap na kung kelan pwede na ang hindi e hindi pa rin tama ang mali. na kahit kelan ay hindi na magiging tama ang mga maling simula. na may mga bagay na sadyang hindi para sayo no matter how much you want it or try to have it. i do not take comfort in knowing that i got what i wanted. was it really what i wanted? or was i just being mean? it's been a year. almost. just now i realize. i cannot. i can never really let go of something i never had. it will always. and always just be there. haunting you. enslaving you. i do not wish to be freed from that haunting. from that enslavement. if it will mean not having you. not having you at all. waaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! i thought i was over it. for a while, i thought it was. i was. but then again, the haunting just gets even more wanting. as if you've always wanted to be haunted. i try to make myself as distant as possible. but the more i get distant, the more i get even closer. even more longing. even more needing. resolution: nothing i can really do to forget it all. hindi madedelete kagaya ng entries sa blog na eto. memories will always be memories. unless nagka- amnesia ako. the best that i can do with this worse situation is >> accept the fact that it can never be. at least sa mga panahong ito. >ahahahh.. who knows.. you. i . we can never. NEVER SAY NEVER as what my friend always tells me<> >>try to get used to the feeling without doing anything about it. it'll pass. hope so. >> i know i cannot. can but not let it go. @ least get a life tin! apart from all the katangahan at kagagahan. ahahahhhhh! and that's the way to live it! aha! .. aha! i like it... ahhhhhhhhaaaahahaaaaaHhhh! o ayan. sira mode nanaman ako. psycho me. * imissyou. pout.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
it's so nice to be happy.. shalala.. ahahahahhh.. uuyyy, kumakanta sya.. ahihihih. well anyway, let the blogging begin...
wednesday night: hindi ako makatulog. ewan ko ba. basta, uneasy. ansama sa pakiramdam na gusto mo nang matulog but you cannot. you would not. btw, i got tita's new cp, SE K750i. gorgeous! she had to treat me for doing so. ahahahahhh! veggie pizza @ pizza hut.
fyi: im a vegetarian. no meat. but not all meat. ahahahaahh!! huliii kaa! hmmm.. kaw nag isip nyan hindi ako. (but not all meat. i mean. i do eat chicken.)
thursday night: pre-bday for tita. lights will do. pampatulog lang. solb. oks. hihi.
friday night: am suppose to go back to UP for the feb fair. i did not. mood swings. uminom lang mag isa. why not.
saturday night: nagluto si tita ng isang masarap na dinner. ohh so yummy dinner. friends came over to celebrate with us. kantahan. inuman. bailey's baby.
sunday night: celebrate good times c'mon! ahahahahh! it was a choice. whole-heartedly decided on it. you must have been really special. must have been. must be. bettter be. one sweet asShoLe. maaga pa ang gabi. sayang. labas tayo. went to baywalk. Nthology. ate. drank. chitchat. had fun. got drunk. masaya. masaya talaga. no words to describe it. went home together. call it a day. good day. one of my bests.
last night, ez and i were suppose to have coffee. (baka sakaling magising ako at matauhan) i was already there. 6750 corner. waiting. waiting. haluy mo ez. hehe. di, kei lng. it gave me time to compose myself. there she was. late. ahihihhih. gutom ang lola mo. so we had to go somewhere we can have something to put in her empty big chan. ahhahahah. just kidding. ayun. The Big Grill. somewhere G2 side. mala. kain o inom? uhaw. inom sempre. ahahahhh. 
can you feel the beat?
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